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I try so hard to do what is right,but
whatever I do is wrong. My Aunt is constantly yelling at me. I hate being yelled at.
It hurts my feelings and it makes me feel like I just ruined someone's day.
I just wish she understood me.
I hate having to explain anything I do.
I really do.
I do things,because I do.
It's as simple as that.
Apryl told me that not knowing why I do things is easier for her to
understand my personality more.
I was hoping that it ould help my Aunt,but alas it didn't it just makes her mad.
I'm so used to doing thing and saying things when i'm ready.
So,now when she asks for an answer right away.....I can't give it to her,because
I have to wait on saying it in my mind.
I have a lot of weird tendencies and I can't help if i'm just weird.
The only person that ever truly undestood me was Aprl.
I miss her so much. I wish she moved with me. I hate being here,but then again...I don't. If I could have chosen Apryl to come here I would have.
I couldn't even say goodbye when I left.
That just made me so sad.
I feel like I keep letting my friends down.
I promised I wouldn't leave.....but I did.
I feel like I betrayed her.
I'm just not feeling so well lately.
People are starting to get to me.
At my new school,people are mean and they act so fake.
I rather not have any friends then have a pretend friend.
People just like me,because.....they THINK i'm cool.
On the inside....i'm such a dork. I like me and i'm never going to
change my personality just to be accepted. I like pink hair and
I like converse,I like to skateboard and I like to play the ps2.
I make more guy friends than girls....It has always been that way and I don't think it will change,because girls are still wannabe's and I'm just A BE. I'm gonna
be me no matter what. I'll try my hardest not to be so weird,but it gets hard for me.
I miss you Apryl. I need to come back. I feel so tired today.
I miss my life with my dad.
Having no dad is no fun.
I miss him everyday.
I find myself getting jealous,because everyone else can say dad,everyone...except me.
I'm so tired of not being able to laugh at his dumb jokes or show him how to do new dances......Not being able to hear him laugh...hurts the most.
I miss my daddy so much.
It hurts to wake up without him in the morning.
If I had just one more chance.....I'd say that i'm sorry....sorry for not being the
best daughter...I know I could have been.
I'm sorry for letting you down dad.