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Promises are like memories;made and forgotten.


Memories consume,which leaves me no space for thoughts,but nothing can make me forget all those nights we fought.

I don't know why I called you,but from the moment I saw you.....I
knew it was going to be a new adventure with you.


Everything's standing,while i'm falling apart....this is the price I pay for
a broken heart. No cure,just clever lure...






Feelings:
I'm having these feelings of of confusion and resntment,with all jokes aside I don't know if I can keep what I feel bottled up inside with some..... locks and one set keys. I would do anything to unravel these thoughts,that are so painful they bring you to your knees. Dreams.Moments. Flashbacks too. Back to the days were there was a me and you. I wake up out of a cold sweat,calling your name because for a moment I forget. I forget everything that happened,but like a blast from the past it suddenly hits me. I can't keep pretending because it's what you want. I use to do t because I thought you cared,but now I know I was turning a blind eye to the flaws in you,not caring because you were once true. Not like the other's and my brother,just different. But now as the days go by, I feel us drifting......apart. I carry all these feeling in my heart. I knew that one day I might die,and I knew that it would be with you by my side....not another guy. This feeling of longing to tell you the truth was made into a ruse that you started and now you look at me half-hearted. Not like you use to when you use to care. My only question is why is life so unfair?


This is not a poem. These are my actual feelings I had for "J".

He broke me,but he did not make me,so I take what's left of me and walk away. it's for a cause. Not a moment to pause. The thing is that the truth wasn't what I wanted. I wanted everything to be the way it used to be,so why tell me the truth.
It's so easy to say something to me. He could have written,instead he kept forrgettin
what it was he was supposed to set his sights on,because that was the only thing left to write on. Truth becomes lies,and lies become truth. Just do me a favor and explain what became of you?
Damn, you've stolen my heart and now you left it on my doorstep torn apart...
into pieces....something unrecognizable....it's hate. It from all the times you made me worry and took advantage of me. Your such an ingrate,once first class,but now second rate. Your a disgrace get outta of me head. As I lay down I put these problem to bed. Hoping maybe the next day I will get shot,instead i'm left in this body to rot.If this is the way life is supposed to be. Take it away. What used to be my friends and family. I don't care because I want this feeling to stop. I want to throw it away,but instead it resides....inside me. Like an unconscious thought that's already been fought,but it won. It took all I was and made me into none.

Note: If Your reading this,I know that Crissy told you all about it.
I'm sorry that i've come to this decision without including you,but I just can't take some of the things that are dished out to me by you. I know your Crissy's brother,but just do me the favor of pretending I never met yo. You can have Amanda and Amanda can have you. Please stop calling me and just learn to forget.
Thanks "J".