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So, I just got strike three today. I recently learned that women are the ones who are supposed to ask for commitment and not the men. Only they know when they're ready and if only I knew that I wouldn't have pushed so hard. I'M SUCH AN IDIOT! Even if she rarely says she loves/likes me, her actions spoke louder and by the intensity in her voice, she meant it. Stupid, stupid, stupid! As I speak, I am beating myself in the head. I really thought I could see myself with her too. I totally hate myself now. This year really sucks and I will be kicking myself in the butt for the next couple of months. I'm such a stupid, stupid man. This will haunt for a time and then some. I JUST finished reading an article on this exact same subject->Women fear of commitment part two of this article also sums up my experience->Asking for commitment. The chances of me and her getting together ever again is slim, but, if it did happen, I wouldn't rush a thing and accept things in stride. I still love her and I just made a dumbass mistake.