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This really, really hurts. Man, I don't think I've ever felt like this before. Allow me to give you an illustration of what it looks like to me in my head and what it feels like in my spirit. Picture a human heart, black and blue from despair suspended amidst a black void and noticing that every time it beats, it bleeds. And that blood is cool as ice, yet soothing like a Hall's cough drop as it exits the wound. THAT, is what's going on right now. This pain is so abysmal and agonizing that at times I have to grab my chest from the emotional turmoil going on inside. I wish it didn't have to come to this. I wanted everything to turn out better, but, alas, it was not meant to be. How I wished it were though. That would have been a fairy tale ending. Such is my life to search for love. I will not give in, I will not give up the search. There are women out there who'd be glad to have me and I will find Mrs.Right. The world is a big place with women of all colors, attitudes, and character. No settling, although my standards aren't ridiculously high to begin with. I pray this pain goes away soon. If I could cry, I would shed a single tear from both eyes.