• "you've got issues."
    "you have anger problems."

    "It wasn't true...it's not true...it's not.",Slowly my voice trailed off into the cold thin air.....no one heard.I turned and stared up at the sun,"I don't......"
    I looked down tears formed in my eyes from staring at the sun,"they just won't stop....",I said wiping my tears as my voice trailed to a soft whisper.

    I looked up at him,I had been there sitting the whole time.It ws my fault they called him things,"he didn't have to stand up for me;I don't even know him."
    She turned looking down feeling sorry for him,but quickly looked up as she heard the soft drop of tears on concrete.He was crying?

    "hey are you ok?why are you crying?",I turned and looked at her,"I'm not....it's just the sun...." I turned away from her quickly avoiding eye contact."Please go away..."

    I took another step towards him."Is it about you anger problem......."

    My mind shut off and let her voice trail off.I clenched my fist and held back my anger,"ther......there's nothing wrong with me.....please go." I said with a little more anger in my voice than intended.

    I saw his fist clenche up,and now I knew something was wrong.I stepped closer and placed a hand on his shoulder,"Don't worry many people have....."

    My mind treid to shut her out....to late,"anger problems"
    By now I found a stream going down my face,"I don't!....I don't have anger problems!...LEAVE ME ALONE!!",and in a flash I found myself on top of her on the ground,fist tightly clenched.I stood far from myself as the rest of it played out.As I slowly raised my fist and hit her...hard across the face.Then again...and once more,"STOP!!" I tried telling myself,but nothing.
    Then just as quickly asit started,it ended.

    I looked at her a stuned,shocked look filled her face now deeply bruised and cut.It was painfull to sit there and watch myself,to look at her,to see myself,and even...to stop.Tears fell quickly from my eyes as her blood slowly dried on my hand,"NO....No.....no.........no.." I repeated until the tears drowned out my voice,and I found myself running.....running away,"I'm sorry."

    I lie on the concrete for a while after he left.The world a bustle around me.People screamed,cryed,and quickly put there hand over their mouth trying stop the shocked gasp.I was quickly pulled away on a stretcher,(can you beleive that a stretcher?) My wounds were tended to and I was let go,completely fine.I didn't find myself mad at him though,but sad.
    I turned and looked at the classroom tv.The news was on and he was on it.The police were after him for assulting me,and he locked himself in his house.

    Quickly I rushed through the crowd to the house cops tried to stop me,but I just pushed past them.I quickly tried opening the door,locked.I turned to the side of the house ,and opened the window and entered.
    I stayed quiet as I heard him breathing deeply.I ran and found him in a bathroom.Knife held in his hands.

    I held the knife hesitantly,"I...I can't." I heard the window open and soon she came and found me.She stood there looking back and forth between the the weapon and me,"What are you...." I interupted her with a whisper,"i'm sorry...",and then I lifted the knife up and quickly brought it down upon my hand.Pain shook my body ,and forced my to drop the knife,but I picked it up with my injured hand.Then quickly jabbed it into my other.I held onto it this time as blood drenched my hands and fell onto the grounds like a waterfall.
    I lifted my Hand one more time.

    "STOP!",I jumped on him.Forceing my body onto his and grabbed his hand.He held it for a minute,but then dropped it and let it fall with a thud.I held onto him tighter as his tears continued to fall,drenching my hair."I'm sorry....."

    "I know."