*remember we aren't perfect at everything-this was done on aim*
"Matt": I can't read her face, she doesn't look happy, but not mad, not sad, but not relaxed, yet not stressed either. "Sure, you can tell me anything," I say confused.
maure love: "Why...why did you kiss me? I'm not angry, just a little confused." I say, I don't feel like myself and it bothers me. I hug my stuffed animals tighter.
"Matt": "Well, I wanted to put my arm around you to consult you, but..." I began to say, "I remembered your wounds, and I didn't want to hurt you. I'm sorry I did that so suddenly."
maure love: Well, that makes sense, why am I so confused then. "Okay, that makes sense. I just wanted to know." I go back in my trance and walk back to the couch to lay down with my stuffed animals and close my eyes.
"Matt": "Hey, wait, don't sleep yet, the pizza is done," I state, unsure if she heard me.
maure love: "That’s okay, I'll have some later. Don't eat it all." I am actually starving and then my stomach grumbles loudly. No, I don't want to eat. It keeps rumbling and I'm sure Matt can hear it, hopefully not.
"Matt": I can hear her stomach, maybe she doesn't feel good. "Alright, I'll leave in on the warmer. You might want to go upstairs and get some sleep, I think I'm going to work on the door now," I say as I take the bloody towel off my head. The bleeding finally stopped.
maure love: "Okay I will." I go to Matt's room and find Stephanie already sleeping on his bed. It seems she moved while I was downstairs. Great. I take myself downstairs again. I guess I will eat. "Well Stephanie is already upstairs and I guess I'll eat then." I say smiling a little to Matt.
"Matt": "Are you sure?" I ask her, "I can fix the door later." Maybe I should wake Stephanie so we can all eat together. I don't know, something is still bothering Maureen. I'll let her sleep a little longer.
maure love: "Yeah it's fine. I'll get her if you want." I get up to wake her up. "Stephanie. Wake up lazy!" She finally wakes up when I say that. "Good afternoon, pizza's ready." I say with a smile. We head downstairs for some pizza.
"Matt": I cut up the pizza into eight pieces, and I take one. Pretty good for one hand cooking. "Okay, you two eat, I'm going to work on that door."
maure love: I take my pizza, it looks great but I can't eat a bite. By the time I bite into mine Stephanie had already eaten three pieces. I'm so tired, why, why am I so tired? I decide to put down the pizza and go into Matt's room. I lay down there and black out.
"Matt": I attempt to work on the door, as I pick up the hammer with my right hand, then I drop it as my hand cringes in pain. Ouch, why can't this door get fixed. I pick up the hammer with my left hand, but I miss the nail. I can't fix the door using my left hand either.
maure love: I'm not sure what's going on in my dream. But I can tell I'm scared, that's all.
"Matt": I go check of Stephanie, she's eating pizza still. I then go upstairs and I see Maureen in the bed. There's a strange expression on her face.
maure love: I'm in the corner I used to hide in when I was little, under mom's coat. I was hoping they wouldn't fight, I was crying and mom was being beaten. Not again...
"Matt": As I watch her sleep she starts to shake, so I go to get a blanket. I pick it up using my right hand. I quietly yelp in pain and the wrapping turns red.
maure love: Now I'm screaming not to be beaten, mom is just lying there unmoving. I'm being hit with dad's belt. It's like I'm watching this happen and being beaten at the same time.
"Matt": I ignore the pain and bring Maureen the blanket. She mumbles in her sleep, "Stop." I try to wake her, "Maureen, Maureen, are you alright Maureen?"
maure love: I wake up, Matt is shaking me, and I burst out in tears. "Matt....why?? Why am I being beaten?" I can't stop crying I totally shut down. I put my head in my hands and then grab my stuffed animals. I'm crying harder then I ever have.
"Matt": I reach out to hug Maureen, then pull back because of her wounds. I sit down next to her. "I think I need to talk to your father. I can't stand to see you like this."
maure love: I practically yell in his face, "DON'T!! DON'T EVER!!" I keep on crying, thinking of the beating I'll get if Matt says anything.
"Matt": I actually feel angry at Maureen's father, to the point where I think I'd get into a fight with him. "Fine, I won't," I say as I watch her cry. I feel completely helpless. I don't know what I can do. Maybe Shawn can help ... then he might make things worse too. "I ... I'm sorry, I don't know what to say."
maure love: "It's fine...you can leave if it makes you uncomfortable that I'm crying." I say between sobs. I slow down the sobs but am still crying, I hug the stuffed animals I have. I feel like a big baby to be affected this much by my dreams. I say quietly, "Sorry Matt." I then continue crying.
"Matt": "No, I'm sorry for not being able to help you," I say as I look down in shame. I notice my hand.
maure love: I can't stop, I need to. My breathing calms a little. But the tears keep running down my cheeks. My mascara is so ruined by now. I then look where Matt is staring. His hand is all bloody. "Matt...go check on your hand. What did you do?"
"Matt": "Its fine, I'll worry about it later," I say as I hide my hand. I use my left hand to wipe a tear from your eye. "That’s it, I'm talking to your father, I sorry, but I have to."
maure love: "Don't, if you really care Matt, don't say anything." I am still crying but not as much. "Matt....don't. I might end up in the hospital or worse." I start crying again, thinking of the last time I was there.
"Matt": "I'll make sure that doesn't happen," I say. "You stay here, I’ll be back soon." I will make him realize what he's doing to Maureen.
maure love: "No!" I grab onto him and don't let go. "Stop it Matthew! I said Stop! This isn't your problem! This isn't your family!" Why is he doing this? "Are you listening to me??"
"Matt": "You're the closest person to family I have left," I tell her. "This has to stop now." If I play my words right, I might me able to get through to him.
maure love: I let go because my wounds start to open. This is a horrible day. "Matt. I going to say this once, he will hurt you badly and I can't let that happen. I don't really care what happens to me at the moment but I can't let anything happen to someone innocent." I say this calmly and he slows down a little. Blood starts to stain my shirt.
"Matt": "If he tries to hurt me, I'll fight back. He won't attack if he's not drunk, and if he is his motions will be slow and easy to dodge ...," I notice the blood. "Never mind, I'll worry about this some other time, you're bleeding."
maure love: Thank God. "You're going to fight him? Matt I think you forgot about your own hand. I could care less about me." I'm worthless and in everyone's way. "Take care of your hand. I'll bandage myself." I get up to get my stuffed animals and go into his room and getting one of my shirts out of my school bag.
"Matt": I think of what you said. Then I come to my conclusion. "You take care of yourself, ask Stephanie for help if you need it, I'm going to see your father. I don't intend of fighting him. If he hits me three times, then I'll fight back." My right hand is starting to go numb, this might be a good thing.
maure love: No, I thought he was going to help me instead of going to my father. I walk out of the room and go back to look at him. Tears start pouring down my face again I walk up to him and hug him. "Please Matt, I'm begging you, don't do this. I don't know what I'd do without you." I don't let go of him and keep crying.
"Matt": "I'm going, you can come if you want," I say. I should stay here with her, but I need to speak with him.
maure love: Why doesn't he understand? "Matt...please...please don't do this." Now I wish he never knew. I stick to him like glue, hugging him with my life. Then Stephanie comes up the stairs and sees us hugging. She yells and scares us both.
"Matt": Maybe I shouldn't go, I ignore Stephanie and say, "Fine, but the next time you go home, I'm coming with you. I don't want you to be hurt again." I see the blood coming through the shirt. "Stephanie, get over here and help her." "Right," she replies. I need to take care of my hand. I move it, but can't feel it.
maure love: I have stopped crying as hard and say, "Okay, but don't go over there by yourself." I realize that Matt's hand it still bleeding and say, "Stephanie go and help Matt instead, I've got it covered." She goes and walks over to him and I go into his room and shut the door. I carefully take off my shirt and bandage myself up. I take out the tube top from my bag and carefully put it on. I've covered up all the cuts so they aren't visible, you could only see some of the bruises.
"Matt": I walk into the bathroom to get the first aid kit. Stephanie follows me in. I take off the wrappings and the cuts reopen. "Stephanie, can you find the gauze?" I ask her. "Yeah, sure," She replies as she digs through the kit and brings it to me. "Thanks, I'll take care of it from here, go check of Maureen for me," I tell her.
maure love: I walk out of Matt's room and see Stephanie waiting for me. "Hey, Maureen. You know Matt is pretty head-over heels for you." She whispers. "Yeah I figured it out." I say back quietly. "Where is he?" I ask. "He's in the bathroom." Stephanie replies. "Thanks." I reply. I go into the bathroom to check on him, "How is it Matt?"
"Matt": "Its okay," I say as I finish wrapping the burn. "Are you okay Maureen?"
maure love: "I think so. How did you do that?" I ask him, still not feeling like myself.
"Matt": "If you mean the burn, that’s from cooking one-handed," I say then I laugh. I think more into the burn, there’s cuts on my knuckles too that I didn't notice. That must be from punching the wall.
maure love: "Oh I see. I'm sorry Matt." I grab his hand gently, realizing that I don't have any stuffed animals in my hand I need something to hold onto. "I think you missed some cuts here. What are they from?"
"Matt": "Possibly from punching the wall," I say. "Don't worry about it the cuts aren't bad at all."
maure love: "Are you sure, I never apologized to you. I'm sorry I called her a slut in front of you." I still feel bad about that. My stomach growls again. 'Now I'm hungry again, I think I'll actually eat this time."
"Matt": "I think there's some pizza left, go and help your self," I say. "Thanks for apologizing, it means a lot."
maure love: That made me smile "Okay I will." I walk into the kitchen to get some pizza off the warmer; I accidentally touch it and burn myself. Crud, I don't yell out at all but run my hand under cold water and eat with pizza while I'm doing that.
"Matt": I go over to the couch and sit down. Then I get up and walk over to the door and just stare at it.
maure love: "Matt? What are you doing?" I've eaten enough but feel a little sick because of this being the first thing I've eaten for a while. I have also wrapped my hand. "Do you need me to fix it?" I ask trying not to hurt his manly pride.
"Matt": "No, I'll get it," I reply. "What happened to your hand?" I say as I make my way to the basement.
maure love: I look at my hand. "Oh I burned it on the warmer, it's fine though." I smile at him and get my stuffed animals in his room. "Are you sure you don't need help?"
"Matt": "You can help if you want to," I reply, "Are you sure your hand is okay?"
maure love: "Only if yours is!" I say jokingly. "I'll use one hand and you use one hand. Team work I guess." I feel crappy but am in a better mood. I can feel Shawn creeping into my mind again, I try and block it out by helping Matt.
"Matt": "Okay, I'll get a screw driver," I say, "I'll be right back." I head down the stairs. I look around in a crate. I grab the screwdriver, but the pile of tools shift and fall on my right hand. I rip my hand out, with the screwdriver. I which hands and run back upstairs and into the bathroom.
maure love: I see Matt run into the bathroom, hand bleeding again. I walk into where Matt is. "Are you okay, you keep losing a lot of blood."
"Matt": "I'm fine, I say. This burn is such a pain. It keeps getting in the way. I rewrap it again and head over to the door.
maure love: "Stephanie??" I say loudly. "Can you help me fix the door so Matt doesn't die of blood loss?" She yells back, "Sure!" We go near the door and pull Matt away from it. We soon patch up the door. It looks pretty good if you ask me. "Well, Matt didn't die and we fixed the door." I say. We give each other high fives and sit down on the couch quite tired.
"Matt": "Good, you too did better than I thought," I tell the both of them, "A lot better, it looks great," I say in awe.
maure love: "Thanks." We say at the same time and start to laugh. I get up and grab my stuffed animals and sit back down. "Hey Matt, why do you still have these?" I ask nicely.
"Matt": I never thought about it really, I guess it just reminded me of when we were young. "I never throw things away," I day laughing.
maure love: I start laughing because I know it's true. "Okay, just wondering. So Steph, are you tired?" I ask. "Bushed." She replies. "Me too! I think I'm going to take a quick walk." I get up thinking that I'll go to my house really quickly. I go into Matt's room and put on his sweatshirt again. I head to the door and wave good-bye. "I'll be back in about 15 minutes." With that I start jogging to my house.
"Matt": I want to chase after her, I don't know if she'll be okay. She left so fast I didn't have time to follow her, plus Stephanie is here too. "I'm beat," I tell her. I go and plop on the couch. "I'm going to take a quick nap," I say. "Alright, I will too," Stephanie says as she lies on the other couch. I fall asleep.
maure love: I go into my house quietly. My father is sober and hugs me softly. "Hi dad." I say. "Hello sunshine. Where have you been? I was worried." He says nicely. My nickname, I haven't heard him call me that in a while. "Sorry I didn't call, I was watching over a friend that was sick, I'm going back over there soon, I just need to get some clothes." I say and walk to my room. It is just as I left it. I rummage through some stuff and pick up some clothes and a few bandage rolls; I shove it in my tote bag. I am soon done with this room and go into the bathroom. I get some medications like painkillers and antibiotics. I am done and go into the living room to say bye to my dad. "Bye Dad, I'll see you soon." I say quickly and walk out the door. Why can't every day be like this? I walk slowly back to Matt's house.
"Matt": As I'm sleeping I rollover on to my hand. The sharp pain wakes me up. Thankfully it doesn't bleed again. I write a note and leave it on the coffee table. It states I'm going back to the hospital to get this wound fixed and to pay for the hole I put in the wall.
maure love: I'm still wandering around the neighborhood when I see Matt driving. I wave at him. He slows down and lets me in. "Where you going?" I ask.
"Matt": "I'm going to the hospital," I reply, "to pay for the hole and get this burn checked out."
maure love: "Okay, mind if I tag along?" I say and then smile, just wanting to be out of the house again.
"Matt": "I don't mind, we should get your burn checked out too," I tell Maureen.
maure love: "Nah, it's only a minor burn. I put some stuff on it so it's okay." I say to Matt.
"Matt": I laugh, "You're lucky, mines all messed up," I reply. We arrive at the hospital and walk in.
maure love: "Aww, Matty!" I say not realizing that I just called you your old kid nickname. "Whoa, I can't believe I just called you that! It's been years."
"Matt": "Haha, that’s okay," I reply, "I don't mind. How are your wounds, getting better?"
maure love: I forgot about them for a little, I won't tell Matt that I went to my house without him though. "They're getting better, not as raw." I realize that I keep stealing his clothes. I start laughing. "Hey Matt, sorry I keep stealing your clothes!"
"Matt": "That’s okay, you look good in my shirt," I reply, "My stuff is your stuff." We walk in and I hand the money to the person behind the counter and ask to see a doctor.
maure love: "You want me to come in with you? Well, I would share my clothes but that might be weird." I say jokingly.
"Matt": "Sure," I reply, then I laugh, "that would be weird if I wore your clothes." We walk into the doctor’s office and I show him my hand as he examines it.
maure love: I sit down in a chair that isn't taken by the doctor. The doctor keeps looking at Matt's hand, I hope it's not bad.
"Matt": "What did you do?" the doctor asks. "I burnt myself cooking," I reply. "Okay, its not that serious, but I'll give you some ointments for it," the doctor replied
maure love: Thank goodness! We're soon out of that place after Matt pays for the hole in the wall. "So, are we going home?" I ask.
"Matt": "Do you have somewhere else in mind?" I ask her. I brought my cell phone, so if Stephanie ever wakes up and needs us, she'll probably call.
maure love: "Nah, I was just wondering." I say. "You wanna go anywhere?"
"Matt": "I can't think of anywhere at the moment," I reply. I rack my mind to think of anywhere to go.
maure love: "Hey, ever been ice skating?" I ask trying to get going places off my mind.
"Matt": "Yes, I did once," I answered. "I fell through the ice, I never went again." I say laughing.
maure love: Oh no! I didn't want to bring back bad things! "Oh, that’s no good." I say laughing quietly. I can see Matt's house now. "I wonder if Stephanie is up." I say trying to change the subject.
"Matt": "I don't know, she sleeps a lot," I say laughing. We pull into the driveway and we enter approach the door. I open it. "Wow, you girls actually fixed this door perfectly."
maure love: I laugh and see Stephanie eating a yogurt at the table. "Where did you two go?" She asks. "I was coming from my house and saw Matt driving to the hospital." I say. "Matt had to go and pay for the hole in the wall and got some antibiotics."
"Matt": "Yeah, I left a note on the table," I reply. I guess she didn't see it. I walk over and pick up the note and throw it away.
maure love: I just realized that I said I went to my house without Matt, good thing he didn't hear me! "I'm hungry again, anyone want Mac & cheese? My specialty!" I ask and sit down.
"Matt": "YES!" I yell, "MAC & CHEESE FOR ME PLEASE!"
maure love: I laugh really hard at this, "Whoa!! Matt you practically knocked me off my seat! Okay, Mac & cheese it is!" I get up and start cooking the pasta. I then start my own cheese mix. Matt stares at me with hungry eyes. "Matt, you're freaking me out a little. It'll be done in about 10 minutes."
"Matt": I stare at the cheese. "Alright," I reply. I go and curl up in the corner ... so I can watch how to make the cheese,.
maure love: Matt is still watching me while I make the cheese sauce. The pasta is soon done and I whip a little milk into a frothy cream to add to the cheese. I mix all the stuff in with the pasta and find 3 bowls. "Ta-da! All done, Matt don't burn your tongue it's hot." I say with a large smile, I love cooking.
"Matt": " ... cool, I'll remember how to do that," I reply. I think I'll wait on eating it, I'm starting become scared of hot things.
maure love: "If you need me to show you again just ask tomorrow." I love cooking and whenever I get the chance to I will.
"Matt": "I think I got it Maureen, thanks," I reply. I put some Mac & cheese in a bowl and blow on it.
maure love: I also put some in a bowl for Stephanie and I, I then pass her the bowl. I immediately take a bite out of it, it's great if you ask me. I wolf it down and go sit on the couch. I think I ate too fast.
"Matt": I devour the delicious Mac & cheese. "Wow, that’s good," I state. Stephanie swallows her mouth full, "Yeah its great." I wait for Stephanie to finish then I do the dishes. She offers to dry them for me so I let her. She hands me the dry dishes and I put them away. Then we go into the living room. I plop on the floor so Stephanie can have the couch.
maure love: I see Matt and Stephanie are getting along well, good. They come into the living room and sit down. I move over a little on the big couch and pat a spot for Matt to sit, he's always sitting on the ground while we take his couches. "Come up here with me Matt." I say nicely.
"Matt": I get up, "Alright," I reply. I sit down next to her. "you know that floor is actually very comfy."
maure love: I laugh, "I know but you always give up your stuff for us, why not just share the couches?" I reply. "Was the Mac & cheese any good?" I ask not knowing how it went over with the two.
"Matt": "I actually sleep on the floor more than my bed," I reply. "The Mac & cheese was great."
maure love: "Really? Me too! Good, I'm glad you liked it." I move a little on the couch hitting my cuts a little, I try not and let these things show. I grab my stuffed animals again and jokingly say, "I remember that we used to sit here and have puppet shows with toys and such. That was so much fun. Do I look like I'm seven again?" I smush the animals close to me and try to make a cute face, I start laughing.
"Matt": "Haha, you do look like you're 7 again," I say laughing. I do remember those puppet shows, "Those shows were fun."
maure love: "Why did we ever stop hanging out and being best friends?" I ask still laughing. I can't remember for the life of me why.
"Matt": I try to remember, but I can't' find a reason. "I honestly don't know," I say, still racking my mind.
maure love: I'm thinking about this now, why did we stop being friends for a while? All of the sudden Stephanie runs to the bathroom. "I'll be right back." I get up and follow her. She's in there throwing up again. "Don't say anything to Matt." She says weakly. I talk to her for a little while and find out why she's been throwing up a lot.
"Matt": I wonder why they left do fast, but I didn't want to impose. So I fall asleep on the couch for a quick nap.
maure love: I promise I won't tell Matt anything about this, this secret of hers. "Do your parents know?" I ask. "No they don't. I don't want them to know." She says calmly. "Who's is it?" I ask, I'm shocked by her answer. We walk out of the bathroom to find Matt sleeping on the couch. I sit down next to him and rest my eyes, I'm also asleep soon.
"Matt": I wake up and find Maureen sleeping. Its late, I get a blanket and cover her, then I get a blanket for myself too and go bad to sleep.
maure love: I wake up in the middle of the night to find Matt sleeping next to me, I’m actually fine with this. I snuggle down next to Matt and his arms unintentionally go around me. I find myself going back to sleep.
"Matt": It’s seven in the morning and I wake up. I find Maureen lying in my arms. I don't know how she got there, but I try to get up with out waking her.
maure love: I feel Matt moving around and I stir awake, "Good-morning." I turn to hug him, but then realize that he isn't Shawn. "Oh, sorry Matt....I thought you were....." I don't finish but get up instead. I go and lay down on the floor, deciding really was comfortable. I pull my blanket around me and try to fall back asleep.
"Matt": I think I know what she was thinking, but I don't feel like bringing it up. "Good morning," I say quietly not to wake Stephanie. "What do you want for breakfast."
maure love: I'm embarrassed from what I almost did. "Sorry Matt, I don't know what I want. Ever had something called chipped beef? I can make it if you're up for an adventure for your taste buds." I smile but I still miss Shawn.
"Matt": "Well, if you're up to it go ahead," I start to say, "but I'm going to sleep a little more."
maure love: "Okay." I get up and start making my breakfast. I nearly start crying though it because of Shawn. I sit down at the table to eat and see that Matt is looking at me.
"Matt": "What's wrong, Maureen?" I say as I walk into the kitchen. I take a seat next to hers. "You don't have to tell me, only if you want to."
maure love: Should I tell him? I promised Stephanie that I wouldn't. "I miss Shawn." I say even though it’s not the major thing bothering me.
"Matt": I don't really know how to react to this, but I'll try to consult her. "We'll see him in school tomorrow, Maureen," I begin to say, "you can get yourself straight with him there." Then I remember the phone has been invented. "Unless you want to call him now, you can do that to."
maure love: "I'd rather not. I miss him but am still mad at him for what he did with Stephanie." I rest my head in my hands. "Matt, what did you do after you and Stephanie broke up? I'm sorry, this might be kinda personal, you don't have to tell me." I say, this sounds kinda rude for me to ask.
"Matt": "Well ... ," I began, "I told her the truth after I realized that I didn't have true feelings for her."
maure love: "Do you...think she ever cheated on you?" I ask quietly. I feel the tears about to come to my eyes so I shove a piece of my breakfast in my mouth, I almost throw up from it.
"Matt": "I had my suspicions, but," I began ... but couldn't continue. I though about over and over, I don't know why I didn't confront her about that. "I never said anything, I was too ... too afraid too lose her."
maure love: I understand that. I'm not sure what to say. So I just mumble, "Okay...just wondering." I get up and get my stuffed animals again. I'm such a baby. I push forward my plate, I didn't eat any of it. I bury my head into my stuffed animals unable to say anything. I can feel the hot tears running down my cold face.
"Matt": "Are you okay, Maureen?," I start to say, "Is there anything I can do to help?"
maure love: 'Yeah, I'm fine." I look up and smile even though I'm crying. "Just sad." I wipe the tears from my face and I realize how much I love matt. He's always there for me.
"Matt": "Are you sure," I ask her, "I'm here for you if you ever need me."
maure love: "Thanks Matt....I'm just confused. I have feelings for you and Shawn. I think I'm falling in love with you." I'm still crying but I smile.
"Matt": I wipe a tear from her eye. "Just do what your heart tells you, true love will find you some time in your life."
maure love: "But Matt, my heart is broken and I don't know if it can heal without you. I sound so stupid, I'm sorry." I put my head down and look at my knees, stuffed animals being hugged tightly.
"Matt": I wanted to hug her, but I was still worried about her wounds. "I'll try to help you, but you need to talk to Shawn about this. That will be hard, but it will work the best."
maure love: "Okay...I will." I get up and hug him. "Thanks Matt." I go into his room and call Shawn. We talk for over an hour, and I'm pretty upset but feel a little better. I'm still crying hard so decide to lie down on his bed. I soon fall asleep.
"Matt": Stephanie wakes up finally. I tell her that you cooked us breakfast and her eyes light up.
maure love: I have a strange dream, Matt and I are at a masked costume party. I'm dressed as a beautiful princess and he is a prince. We dance not knowing each other's identities.
"Matt": I eat breakfast with Stephanie, I worry about Maureen though. I do the dishes with her help again. Then we watch TV.
maure love: We keep dancing until a young man comes and starts dancing with me. I'm not sure who it is. He seems familiar though. Matt comes back to dance with me. While we dance my mind is on the stranger who cut in.
"Matt": I fall asleep while watching TV. I fall off the couch and hit my hand off the coffee table. "Ah! Damn it!" I yell. My hand starts to bleed again. I follow the doctor’s direction on how to deal with it.
maure love: Matt and I go to the balcony away from the dance floor. We sit and talk about ourselves. He lifts his mask, it really is Matt. I'm so happy I hug him. He hugs me back. I have so cuts or bruises in my dream. I lift my mask also. We dance the rest of the night away without our masks on.
"Matt": I go back and sit on the couch, Stephanie is sleeping again on the other. So I close my eyes to sleep again. It’s raining outside, making us tired.
maure love: I wake up feeling better, no nightmares. I get up and find Matt and Stephanie sleeping. Do I dare lie next to Matt? No I better not. Even though the cuts are almost healed the bruises are still purple. I sit down on the floor and start texting my friends.
"Matt": I wake up and see Maureen. "How are you doing?" I ask her.
maure love: Matt startled me a little. "You were right, I feel a little better after I talked to Shawn. Hey, wanna go to the movies? I need something to take my mind off of him." I smile at you.
"Matt": "Yeah, its a great day for that. Want me to wake Stephanie or not?" I asked her.
maure love: "Only if you want to. I think we should considering we always leave her here." I say
"Matt": "Yeah, you’re right, we do leave her out a lot," I reply. "Stephanie, wanna go to the movies?" I ask her after I wake her. "Sure!" she replies and jumps off the couch. I don't know where she gets the energy.
maure love: Stephanie sleeps so much, so whenever she finally gets up she bounces off the walls. How annoying. "So what are we seeing?” I ask. "I want to see Charlotte's Web!!!" says Stephanie happily. Matt and I exchange glances. "How about something a little happier, like Happy Feet." I suggest. I don't really want to see Charlotte's Web, the spider dies and everyone is sad and stuff. No thanks. "What do you want to see Matt?" I ask.
"Matt": "I wanna see something happy," I reply smiling.
maure love: I smile back and declare, "Happy feet it is! I just have to get some money out of my bag I brought over." I run into Matt's room with Stephanie following. "Maureen? You didn't say anything to Matt about you know.... well, did you?" She asks. "Of course not." I say with a serious tone. We walk out of his room and find him waiting for us at the door.
"Matt" (7:35:00 PM): As they walk out of the room, I wave my wallet. "I'm paying for this one, I owe you."
maure love (7:38:18 PM): I remember that day at the diner when I left my twenty. "Are you sure Matt?" I ask holding my bag out. "I have money to you know!" Stephanie makes a low whining sound. "Are you okay?" I ask, thinking of her secret. "Yeah." I she says. "Okay! Lets go!" I say happily. We head out the door and get in the car. I sit up front next to Matt while Stephanie plops down in the back.
"Matt" (7:39:55 PM): I start the car and begin driving to the movies. "I'll pay for you too Stephanie," I say. I always did like buying things for other, no matter what they were.
maure love (7:41:00 PM): We soon get to the theater when I see Shawn with another girl in his arms. I try not to let this affect me so I hurry into the line for the tickets.
"Matt" (7:42:32 PM): I watch Maureen dash off. I chase after her with Stephanie following me. "Whoa, slow down," I tell her, "and don't forget I'm paying."
maure love (7:44:11 PM): "I know." My thoughts are preoccupied. "I'm just in a hurry to get in that’s all." I glance over his shoulder and see Shawn looking this way. I quickly turn around and fiddle with Matt's sweatshirt.
"Matt" (7:46:15 PM): "We got here early, there’s no need to rush," I tell her. I look around to see if anyone I know was here. I see Shawn. I hope Maureen didn't see him, I want to keep her mind off him.
maure love (7:48:25 PM): "Yeah, I know. Just really want something to drink. I didn't have anything all day. “I reply and then whisper to Matt, "He's here, with another girl....already." I start thinking about him again. I stop thinking and fiddle with my cell phone.
"Matt" (7:49:52 PM): "I know, I saw him," I reply, "We don't have to be here if you don't want to."
maure love (7:52:01 PM): "It's fine." All I wanted is to be away from him and there he is, with another girl. Not any girl actually. I look back and see it's Danielle, my so called best friend. "Damn it...its Danielle."
"Matt" (7:53:48 PM): I look over at Shawn with anger, but I hide the emotion. "Danielle?" I reply shocked. "What is he thinking, you can't skip from girl to girl like that."
maure love (7:56:36 PM): "Yeah...and I thought she was my best friend." I'm hurt about Danielle and now a little angry with Shawn. "It's fine, I just have to check who my real friends are." I say looking at Matt.
"Matt" (8:00:23 PM): "I'm sure she's still you friend," I reply, "Next time you see her, you should warn her about Shawn though."
maure love (8:01:49 PM): "Yeah I should. Unless she got my text message about him already." I know that she did considering she wrote back. Whatever. "Thanks for paying Matt."
"Matt" (8:02:56 PM): "Anytime, you know how I am." I reply smiling at her. We get the tickets and enter the darkened room. "Where do you want to sit?"
maure love (8:06:01 PM): "How about in the middle? What do you think Stephanie? Stephanie? Hey where is she?" I have a clue. "Save us seats Matt." With that I run out into the bathroom and find Stephanie throwing up again. Why must I always take care of people? "Hey...are you okay?" I ask. She looks up at me and says. "Yeah sorry, never get knocked up Maureen, never." With that we walk back into the dark room and sit by Matt.
"Matt" (8:07:26 PM): "Where did you girls go?" I ask. I never realized it until now, but Stephanie does keep vanishing.
maure love (8:09:40 PM): "We went to go get Stephanie's cell phone, she left it in your car." I say before she says something. I hope that lie worked for him. "Any good previews?" I ask trying to change the subject.
"Matt" (8:12:13 PM): "Not really, but this one movie looked a little interesting," I reply. "Some comedy looked good."
maure love (8:14:24 PM): "Cool." I say as the movie begins. Stephanie keeps fidgeting in her seat and bumping my arm. I whisper, “Something wrong?" She replies with, 'I think I'm going to hurl. "I get up and drag her out of the theater just in time. She barfs in the nearest trashcan. That it is disgusting. I can't believe he did this to her.
"Matt" (8:16:36 PM): I get up and walk out of the room. I see Maureen and Stephanie coming back. "Is something wrong," I ask them.
maure love (8:18:21 PM): "Nope, we were just hungry so we ate some...gummy bears." I say these lies are going to catch up with me one day. Stephanie is looking a little pale. "Matt...can we go home?' She asks quietly.
"Matt" (8:19:46 PM): "Sure, we can go home," I reply, "but you can be honest with me." I dig in my pocket and take out the keys, "Lets go."
maure love (8:21:30 PM): What does that mean? Be honest with me? I let Stephanie sit in the front by Matt and I sit by the window in the back. I hope he doesn't ask me what's up with her, how would he know he's the father?
"Matt" (8:25:04 PM): I know Stephanie is hiding something from me. I also know Maureen knows what it is. "Stephanie, please tell me what’s wrong," I say as we pull into the driveway.
maure love (8:26:49 PM): She looks surprised. "I'm not feeling well, I think I have a stomach virus." She says. He looks at me and I nod. "That's why she ran out of the theater and I checked on her." I say. Lies, when will he find out?
"Matt" (8:28:43 PM): "That would explain everything," I reply. That does fit everything. "Should I take you to a doctor?" I ask her.
maure love (8:30:23 PM): "Nope, I already saw one a little while ago. I just need to drink fluids." She says, a good excuse. We get out of the car and she goes to lie down. "So, I guess we didn't see a movie after all." I say with a smile.
"Matt" (8:31:48 PM): "We'll reschedule that," I reply smiling. "Do you think she'll be okay?" I ask Maureen.
maure love (8:33:23 PM): "I hope so." I say knowing that she'll be sick for at least another 6 months. I hate to ask. "Matt, you don't have to answer this, have you and her ever....slept together." I can see the question surprised him.
"Matt" (8:35:11 PM): The question shocked me. We did sleep for a while in the same bed, but I don't think anything happened. "We did sleep in the same bed, but I don't think we ever did anything." I reply.
maure love (8:36:32 PM): I'm not sure if Stephanie has told me the truth now. I don't reply right away. "Are you sure nothing happened." I sound like a stupid health counselor.
"Matt" (8:38:06 PM): "Yeah, pretty sure," I reply, "She'd come in drunk sometimes, but nothing happened." I think back and remember her coming to bed drunk. I slept on the couch that night though to avoid any temptation.
maure love (8:39:48 PM): She got drunk? "I'm not supposed to say anything but I think it's important enough to say. She thinks you got her pregnant." I say placing my words carefully. "Don't tell her you heard it from me though."
"Matt" (8:41:37 PM): "Can't be mine, I'm sure of that," I reassure her. "I won't tell her." She doesn't get drunk anymore, maybe someone else took advantage of her when she was drunk.
maure love (8:50:09 PM): I think about it. "Okay I didn't think you would do anything like that. I was just making sure. She really does think it's your though, she is totally convinced of it." I think about it.
"Matt" (8:52:14 PM): I think deeper into it. Is that why we broke up how we did? Did someone else get her pregnant? "I need to figure this out, is she sure she's pregnant to begin with?"
maure love (8:53:20 PM): "Yeah, you can see the bulge of her stomach already. That's why she's always wearing sweatshirts." I reply.
"Matt" (8:55:26 PM): I need to find out who the father is. I need to get her to talk about this to me so we can figure this out. "This is pretty serious," I begin. "We need to get her to talk to us about this somehow."
maure love (8:57:09 PM): "Do you mind if I'm not there? I'm actually planning on going out tonight. Sorry, it's my friends sweet 16. I actually wouldn’t feel comfortable doing that, but if you want I'll be there." I say my thought jumbled.
"Matt" (8:58:55 PM): "You can go I'll handle it," I tell her. Though if Maureen isn't there, it will make things a lot harder to bring up if she's not here.
maure love (9:02:07 PM): "Okay, I have to leave in about a half an hour, so I'm gonna go get ready. You'll do okay. Call me if you need me to come home." I get up and hug him, then go get ready. I've brought my dress over and put it on. The cuts are healed and the bruises barely visible. I just put cover upon the bad ones. I've done my hair and just need to do my make-up. I go into the bathroom and I realize that I look pretty good.
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