*be nice this was done on aim*
"Matt": That was fast. "Are you out already," I whisper.
maure love: I sort of hear Matt in my head but don't reply because there is no energy left in my whole body.
"Matt": I get up and walk over to her. She is so beautiful in her sleep. I tuck her in and lay back down. I tuck myself in too, then I close my eyes and relax for a little, not quite falling asleep yet.
maure love: I feel someone tuck me in but it must just be a nurse. I'm too tired to care. I was having a pleasant dream when the nightmare from the night before comes back to me, Matt is blue in the face again. I rush awake and sit up in the bed, "Matt?" I whisper hoping no to wake him, good he's still breathing.
"Matt": "What?" I reply with my eyes still closed, "is anything wrong?"
maure love: "Are you okay?" I guess he has no clue what I'm talking about.
"Matt": "Yeah, I'm fine," I reply. "Why do you ask, are you okay?"
maure love: "Are you sure?" I get up and sit on the side of my bed, this nightmare has really freaked me out for some reason.
"Matt": I open my eyes and look over at Maureen. She looks scared. "Yeah, I'm sure," I reply. I think of the possible reasons she could be so shaken up. "Did you have a bad dream?"
maure love: "Yes. You stopped breathing and I just sat there looking at you. You were blue and I just sat there staring." I put my hands in my face, but not to cry. "I'm not crying." I just want to make sure he knows that.
"Matt": I get up and sit next to her. "Look, I'm fine now," I reassure her. I place my arm over around her, hoping that will make her feel better.
maure love: I feel so stupid. I'm upset over a stupid dream, and Matt is placing his arm over all the cuts and bruises. "Matt, please don't touch me. You know about my father and let's leave it at that
"Matt": "Oh," I gently, but quickly take my arm off her, "sorry, I forgot." Now I feel helpless, there’s nothing I can do to comfort her.
maure love: "It’s okay." I gently touch the places on my arm where I was beaten. I need to get this shirt off. "Matt, this may sound really stupid but can I use your shirt if you won't be to cold tonight." I need to take off this shirt to stop it from rubbing against the cuts.
"Matt": "Right," I take off my shirt and give it to her, "here." I can take to cold good, even in my undershirt.
maure love: "Thanks, please turn around, no peaking." I say. I feel really embarrassed that I have to take off my shirt in front of him.
"Matt": I can't help but laugh. "You know me better than that," I state as I walk over to my bed and burry my face in the pillow. "I respect people more than most."
maure love: I laugh at this. "I know just warning you." I take off my shirt carefully, the bruises are purple and the cuts look raw. "s**t...."
"Matt": "Maybe you should ...," I begin to say. I was going to say call the nurse for help, but that might put her family at risk. " .. never mind." I wish it was something not involving not having a shirt on, at least I could help with that.
maure love: I really need his help, I guess I have to ask. "Matt, this might kill me, or I might die from embarrassment, but I need help." I wince trying to put the shirt on. "I'm sorry to ask you this, could you kinda, help me put this on?" I almost die as the words escape my lips.
"Matt": "I guess so," I reply, I get up off the bed and walk over to her. I move the shirt away from her back and gently put it on. "Is that okay?" I ask.
maure love: "I'm sorry. Thanks you, please don't say anything about this." I am so embarrassed that I have to let him know some things about my family. "When people find out about this they usually have questions....do you?"
"Matt": "I wouldn't feel comfortable to ask any questions about this," I stated. I wanted to say something to her father about this. But if I did, it might result in her getting beat again.
maure love: "Are you sure? I won't get in trouble you know." I sit back on the bed sounding like and idiot. "Matt, I hope you know that this beating isn't because I stayed out with you."
"Matt": That’s a relief. "Well, this doesn't happen often, does it?" I ask her.
maure love: I think about it, "It happens whenever he's drunk which is about once a week. Have you ever wondered why I'm out of it some mornings? Well, that's why." I touch my arms gently trying to warm up from the cold atmosphere in the room. "It's usually very painful and lasts about 2 hours."
"Matt": "Two hours!?" I say, "Don't you ever fight back?" I can't let her get hurt like this anymore, I need to do something about it.
maure love: "No, I can't. That's why I know tons of medical information, I pop bones back into place and can take care of my own wounds. My mom knows but won't do anything about it." He looks really mad, but it's my life and I have to play the cards I'm dealt with. "Matt please don't say anything. I know you promised but you have that look on your face." I pull a blanket around me and wince as the fabric touches my arms and back.
"Matt": "Be careful," I say as I watch her cringe. "I won't say anything, but you can come and stay at my place when your father is drunk, okay?"
maure love: "That means a lot to me Matt, thank you." I get up and hug him. "Thank you." I sit back on the bed and say, "Well, we better get some rest. Nighty-night."
"Matt": "Okay, I will," I say as I tuck myself in. If I can't talk to her father about this, I can at least protect her from it.
maure love: "Thanks again." I soon find myself slipping into dream world. I fall asleep again, hopefully no more nightmares will come my way.
"Matt": I quickly fall asleep, I never have trouble with that. I have a strange dream involving an anteater and watermelons I find it to be amusing.
maure love: The next morning comes quick and I'm still in Matt's shirt, you can see the cuts and bruises. Oh no! I see Stephanie coming into the room so I cover my whole body with comforters and sheets.
"Matt": I see Maureen quickly move in the corner of my eye. I've been up for a while now, looking out the window thinking of everything. I find it to be calming sometimes. "Good morning," I say, "What’s up?"
maure love: I'm still scrambling with my covers when I realize Matt is up. "Morn--" I start but Stephanie comes in and takes over the conversation. "Hey Matt, are you feeling better?" she soothingly says. "I wanted you to sleep in my room last night." She looks at me and makes a face.
"Matt": "Yeah, I'm fine," I say as I watch her make a face at Maureen. I laugh, "You two are going to have to get along eventually, at least I hope so."
maure love: "Mphm I doubt it." I say ruder then I should have. "Yeah me too. She's such a little brat, trying to command your attention all the time." Stephanie snaps back. Oh, that one got under my skin.
"Matt": I laugh at the two of you. "No one commands my attention, I do what I want to," I say then it hits me. Maybe that’s why she dumped me.
maure love: "Shut up Stephanie." I've had it up to about here with her. First she steals my boyfriend and now she's blaming me for taking up all his time. "You are stupid little witch who steals other people's boyfriends you slut." oops, that one slipped out. "You know what Maureen? I've never liked you, I'm happy your dad beats you." Stephanie snickers with that last one.
"Matt": I just stare at Maureen and Stephanie. This was the first time I ever felt like hitting a girl, two girls yet. I stood up and punched the wall, putting a hole through it. "Damn it, shut up, both of you!" I yelled. "You have know right to talk to Maureen like that, you don't know the condition she's in! And you have no right to call Stephanie a slut, you didn't know her like I did!" I took my fist out of the wall and left the room, not looking at either Maureen or Stephanie.
maure love: Both of us look at him as he walks out the door. "Whoa." we say at the same time, "I think we need to talk." I suggest. "I don't want to talk to you." she says, "I'm going after Matt." "Wait!" I yell to her as she leaves the room, "Why did you break up with him?" I ask. "I was bored of him and now I want him back." she states and runs after him. I'm left here to think about what to say to Matt.
"Matt": As I'm wondering around the hospital, Stephanie approaches me. "Look, I don't feel like talking right now," I said, “Go and apologize to Maureen, hopefully she'll apologize too." She looks at me and said, "Fine, I think I understand, I'll do this for you." She starts to walk away. I turn and say to her, "Don't do this for me, do it for yourself. Think of how she feels, put yourself in her shoes. Then you might start to understand her." She looks at me with a sad face, " ... maybe you're right." She heads back to the room.
maure love: Stephanie comes back in the room and sits down across from me. "Listen, I'm sorry for what I said." I'm surprised at their apology. "I'm sorry too, I didn't mean to call you a slut, I was just angry about Shawn. I'm sorry." I say. Soon we are back on old terms and we set out to find Matt together. "Oops! I better throw a sweatshirt on." I run back in the room and grab Matt's sweatshirt because I don't have my own. So we wonder around the hospital looking for him, arms linked like we were 7.
"Matt": I'm over at the counter, apologizing for a hole that appeared in the wall. I tell the person I'd pay for the damage.
maure love: We walk up behind Matt, arms still linked and hug him together, we say sorry about a million and one times.
"Matt": "Well, aren’t you the lucky boy," states the person behind the counter. "I'm as surprised as you are," I reply to them. I turn around and hug the both of you. "I'm glad to see you both are getting along better."
maure love: "We are too." I reply for the both of us. "I'm starved, I think I'll head to the cafeteria and leave the two of you alone for a while." I say and start walking off waving. At the end of that I blow a kiss and start laughing.
"Matt": I wave back to Maureen as she leaves. Then I turn to Stephanie, "I know you know that I like her." "Yeah, I know," She replies, "I think I'm fine with that. She'd be better for you, I put you through too much." I think about this for a second, trying to think how to tell her this. "Well, I like you too, but I can't go back to the way we were. I'll always be here for you, but I'm going to go with Maureen," I state finally. "Alright, I understand Matt," she replies, "thanks for everything."
maure love: I've just realized that the food at the hospital is disgusting. I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday, but I won't stomach this stuff. So I grab a juice box and decide that this is going to be my breakfast and probably lunch too. I walk around the hospital for a while and run into Matt again. "We really have to stop meeting like this" I say jokingly. I'm in a much better mood by my stomach keeps grumbling loudly for real food.
Matt": "k me too, I think we are well enough to leave, though I forget today was Saturday. Lets go back to my place, I'll all of us lunch."
maure love: "Sounds good to me! Have you seen the food here? It looks like someone already chewed it." I then realize I'm wearing his shirt and sweatshirt. "Oh sorry! I stole all of your clothes except your pants!" I smile and laugh, it’s been a while since a real one of those came around,
"Matt": As I look as Maureen's smile, I find myself smiling back. "Alright, let’s get Stephanie and get outta here," I state as I rub my hand.
maure love: "So...Matt? How are we getting home?" I ask a simple question that I don't think can be answered.
"Matt": "Well, I’m up for walk," I reply feeling great.
maure love: "Well, I think last time you walked home you passed out. Are you sure you're okay to walk at least three miles? And what about Stephanie? I know she hates not driving places." I state still worried about his condition. I stop and grab his arm quickly. "Matt, what caused you to cough up blood?" I just realized I don't know what caused that in the first place.
"Matt": I laugh, "I don't know, I happens from time to time if I cough really hard," I tell her. "We could take a cab."
maure love: "I think we should." I'm not sure if he's telling me the whole story. I'm sort of lost in thought after he says that. We catch up with Stephanie and they chat. I'm still lost in thought. We get a cab and are on the way to Matt's house.
"Matt": I'm sitting in the middle as to prevent any arguments, even though they appear to be over. I nudge Maureen. "Hey, what’s up, you where in a good mood not five minutes ago."
maure love: "I'm still in a good mood, just thinking about people and stuff." I smile. I'm really thinking about Shawn and what I'm going to do Monday morning. I repeat, "Just thinking."
"Matt": I lean over and whisper into her ear, "Your thinking of Shawn right?"
maure love: He knows. "Who me? Why would I think about him?" I ask innocently. I can tell he knows I'm lying though. My thoughts are constantly on Shawn or my father. "I'm just thinking about my parents, actually." Another lie, I want to say yes Shawn is constantly on my mind and I can't stop thinking about him. But I can’t.
"Matt": "Did you forget my earlier situation with Stephanie, I know how you feel, you can't get him off your mind right?"
maure love: I sheepishly say, "Yes." I feel the tears coming on again, but can't cry in front of Stephanie so I flash matt a sad smile and turn to face the window a tear running over onto my face.
"Matt": I notice her mood changing, I want to put an arm around her, but I might hurt her cuts. "Hey, Stephanie, what’s the out side," I say pointing to the window beside her. "What, I don't see anything," she states as she looks out the window. I give Maureen a quick kiss on the cheek while Stephanie isn't looking. "Never mind Stephanie, it was nothing."
maure love: Oh my gosh! Matt just kissed me! That has me confused now, probably not the effect he wanted. I try and smile a little, but I can't so I put my head down in my hands.
"Matt": Oh man, I didn't want that effect. A hug would've worked out better, but I would've hurt her too. Now what do I do. maybe it would be better to leave her alone for now, or ... change the subject. Yeah, that's what I'll do. "Hey, what do you girls want for lunch when we get back?"
maure love: "Pizza sounds good to me!" Says Stephanie quickly. "Sounds good," I say. I'm so unsure of what to do. I just want to block everything out. I can feel the tears attacking the corners of my eyes again. We arrive at Matt's house and I pay for the cab, just to get out of it.
"Matt": We walk through the door, "I need to go downstairs to get some dough for the pizza, what to you girls want on it," I ask as I start down the stairs.
maure love: "We're making it?" Stephanie asks. "Just cheese please." I say. I go into Matt's room and try to find my old stuffed bear that I kept over his house. I find it, he actually still has it! I hold it tightly as I sit on his bed thinking.
"Matt": "Okay, cheese it is," I state. "Yeah, I'm a pretty good cook myself." I get the stuff and start to walk up the stairs. I trip on the first step, bashing my head off another. "Ah!," I yell. I managed to not drop the stuff, I put it down and feel my head. It's bleeding from a pressure wound. I pick you the stuff and walk upstairs, putting the stuff on the counter top.
maure love: I hear Matt fall, again. I run into the kitchen with my bear in my hand "Matt? Are you okay?" I can see the blood coming through his hair. I drop my bear and get a towel and run some water on it. "This is why I should cook." Where is Stephanie when these things happen?
"Matt": I laugh, "Its not as bad as it looks, and I wasn't cooking involved," I state truthfully.
maure love: "Well, you should still be careful." I take the cloth away from his head and touch the injury a little. "Keep this on it and sit down." Geeze, do I have to do everything around here?
"Matt": "Nope, I'll be fine, gotta cook the pizza," I reply. I wanted to cook really bad. I put the towel on my head and walk over to the pizza. "This is going to be tough though, one-handed cooking is a first for me."
maure love: I laugh at this, "Call me if you need any help." With this I leave and go into the living room with my bear. I lay down on the couch and fall asleep. I'm too tired now, I'm not sure why though.
"Matt": She looked tired-out; I can't help to think it’s my fault. I do need help, but I don't want to bother her. I walk into the living room to find Stephanie, napping on the couch. Well I guess I'm on my own. I go and start making the pizza.
maure love: I wake up all the sudden. Where am I? The memories of today come flooding back. I get up as if in a trance, my bear still in my arms like when I was five. I make my way to Matt's room, hoping he'd be there.
"Matt": I manage to finish the pizza, with only minor burn on my right hand that I wrap up. I put the pizza on the warmer to keep it warm. I go into the living room. Stephanie is still sleeping, but Maureen is gone.
maure love: He's not there, I go downstairs to look for him and find some stuff we used to play with. Another one of my stuffed animals, this time it's a dog. I remember his name, it's snuggles. I walk back up stairs still looking for Matt, both of the animals in my arms.
"Matt": I look around down here, then I head upstairs. I find Maureen holding two stuffed animals. I try not to laugh, but she looked so cute ... like back when we were young. "There you are," I say smiling and still holding the towel on my head.
maure love: I feel like today will never end. "I was looking for you." I say without any emotion. "Can I talk to you?"
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