*remeber the story was done on aim*
Norky07: I pause for a few seconds, then look down a little. "Okay, what do you want to know, Maureen."
maure love: "I want to know...why you stayed with her for all that time." I say to Matt, I didn't know what else to ask. Stephanie basically told me all of it, except for his side.
Norky07: I look at Maureen and say in a low voice, "I ... I don't know." I never knew why she dumped me so suddenly, but then again, I never really wanted to know.
maure love: "Matt, lets get some food together, we'll talk, you can ask me stuff really personal and I’ll ask you stuff." I say trying to cheer him up.
---Missing some of the story-----picks up in the diner------
"matt": "No, I'll pay for it, get what ever you want, Maureen." I quickly state, "but I don't want anything."
maure love: "Nah, I got my own check, I'm a big girl now I do have a job." I smile and find us a seat. "So what do you want to ask me? Or what do you want to tell me?"
"matt": I look in the direction Stephanie ran. "Is she okay...Stephanie I mean...is she alright?"
maure love: "Well..." How do I tell him? "She looked pretty upset.... what did you say to her?"
"matt": I look back at Maureen. Then think of what I said and realize that though I may have hurt her, I did tell her the truth. "The truth," I said, "but I kinda yelled it and told it bluntly."
maure love: "Oh, I see." I place my hands on the table and drum my fingers slower on the top of it. "Well, the truth does hurt, but it is usually best."
"matt": "Maybe..." I say in a low voice, "Maybe."
maure love: I think about how this day is going, not very good. "So can I ask you something?"
"matt": "...sure," I reply, "What is it?"
maure love: "Well....Shawn said something about you and me....I don't know if this is the right time to bring this up...um, what do you think of me." I wince as though he is going to slap me.
"matt": I look at Maureen and smile slightly, probably the only time I smile this whole day. "Well ... I don't hate you." Usually when I said I didn't hate something, it meant that I liked it.
maure love: "Okay, because when I was talking with Shawn you kept glaring at us." I can't believe I'm telling this to heartbroken Matt.
"matt": "I did?" I'm sorry. I think for a little. "So, do you .. you know ... like him, or something like that?" I ask as I look the other way.
maure love: I hesitate to tell him, he isn't acting like himself. I don't want to hurt him anymore then he already is. "Who me? Why would you ask something like that." I curse myself for telling that lie.
"matt": "Well, because," I started to say something, "never mind."
maure love: "Come on Matt, just tell me, I won't be upset or anything." I should have told him yes, my feelings for Shawn would hurt him though. "You know me." I say with a cheesy smile.
"matt": I look away, because I can't say this face-to-face, not after today's events. "I...um...I had a, a crush on you, for a while now."
maure love: Did Matt really say this to me? to me?? this can't be. I open my mouth but am silent, the words have stopped. "I...You...really?" I must be blushing because I feel the heat radiating off my face.
"matt": I look at Maureen for a little, and then I smile. "Yeah, I guess I do." I can't believe I just said that.
maure love: Oh my gosh, what do I say to that?? I am totally freaking out, things are getting blurry, calm down...okay calm, now say something. "I'm flattered Matt, are you sure you're not just saying this because of Stephanie?" I reply thinking that was the stupidest thing I could have ever said.
"matt": I think of Stephanie for a little, I should go consult her, but my feelings for Maureen are much stronger. "What would this have to do with her?"
maure love: Great now he is going to hate me for this, "I learned this one to many times, once a boy breaks up with his girl he usually has temporary feelings for another, the rebound chick." I replay stirring my water with a spoon.
"matt": "I know that, but Stephanie and I have been over for a while." Though that maybe true, she was the person who got closest to my heart… and the one who hurt it the most.
maure love: "I know...still I know that you have feelings for me and I have feelings for you but..." I can't continue.
"matt": "...but you also have feelings for Shawn ... right?" Whoa, did I just say that, I hope I didn't make her even more nervous.
maure love: "...eh....well...Matt I don't want to hurt you." Great, you know that sinking feeling you get? Well, it’s happening to me. I slouch down a little in my seat, why did I have to bring this up.
"matt": I think to myself, that nothing could've hurt more than pushing Stephanie away today. "... oh, alright. We'll I'm fine with it if you want to go with Shawn instead. As long as you're happy." I look at Maureen and fine myself smiling. As long as the one you love can be happy, what more could one want?
maure love: Why is he taking this so well. "Matt, I...I'm sorry." That very moment I get a call, I answer it's my dad. He yells at me so loud I think Matt can here him across the table. I don't realize what I'm about to say until it passes through my lips, "He is going to beat me tonight..." I just said that out loud. A look of horror passes across my face, "Sorry Matt I need to go." I leave a 20-dollar bill on the table to pay and run out the door.
"matt": ...did she just say what I think she said? Ugh, I can't let her pay for this, I’ll slip here a 20 sometime soon. Well, I’d better go home ... as I get up I see Stephanie standing outside. I sneak out the back and head home.
maure love: I run to my house as fast as I can, but see my dad standing at the door, this is going to be ugly. I see the belt in his hand and cringe. "Hi Dad." I say. He says nothing but opens the door, I walk in and get the worst beating I've ever had.
"matt": On the way home I think of Maureen, is there anything I can do, I don't know. I stop and look in the direction of her house, then I walk home. At home there's a message, I stare at the name on the caller ID for a few seconds. I place my hand over the play button, then the delete, and then the play button again. Then I push delete. I whisper in a low voice "I'm sorry."
maure love: I'm in the bathroom the next morning putting foundation over the bruises and bandages on the cuts. I have to see Matt now so I can't let him see these. I run out and catch the bus just in time, I'm lost in thought the whole way to school.
----------Oops!!----------
"matt": "Hi, nothing much." I notice that Maureen is acting slightly different, but I act as if I don't notice. "How are you?"
maure love: "Matt, please don't say anything that I said about my Dad to anyone, please, promise me." I see the corner of my sleeve start to move up a little, I can see the bruise also. Crap, I forgot to cover that one. I move my hand to cover it up, hoping Matt won't notice.
"Matt": I notice the bruise, but I don't think I should bring it up. "Alright, I promise." I know what happened, but I can't figure out why. I think to myself is this somehow my fault?
maure love: "Thanks Matt." I reply relived that he won't say anything. "How was your morning?" I don't know what else to say to him.
"Matt": "My night was great, this morning was good too." Strangely enough, I felt better that day than most.
maure love: "That’s good." I reply. The next thing I know Shawn is pulling at my sleeve, rubbing the cuts with that. I cringe but try not to show it. It hurts so bad it might bring tears to my eyes if he doesn't stop. "What is it Shawn?"
"Matt": I was about to say hi to Shawn, but then I remembered that I forgot to do my homework for the next, I wave at Shawn, then get to work.
maure love: "Shawn, SHAWN!! Please stop pulling at my sleeve its annoying, the crud outta me." I smile but it doesn't feel like a real one. The cut starts bleeding a little and I ask to go to the nurse because I'm feeling ill, a total lie. The boys give me a strange look but I barely notice.
"Matt": I was tempted to tell Shawn about the cut, but a promise is a promise, so I didn't say anything. I watched as Maureen left the room. "What was that about?" Shawn asked. "She wasn't feeling well this morning." I said. "Listen, we need to talk." Shawn then replied, "Alright, after school."
maure love: I made my way to the bathroom instead of the nurse's. I took out one of the many band-aids I keep in my pockets and put it on the cut; great this was my favorite shirt. I make my way back to class and see Matt and Shawn talking, good. Hopefully the rest of the day will be as uneventful as this is.
"Matt": The class ended and we when on to the next. On the way there I tripped over a book I dropped. luckily no one was, that would've been embarrassing. I walk to the next class and take my seat.
maure love: I basically ignore what's going on through all my classes and aren't even aware that Matt sits near me during lunch detention
"Matt": I look over at Maureen, she seems to be out of it. I want to ask her if she's okay, but I wouldn't be good to talk during detention.
maure love: I'm in a trance today and can't break out of it. School has ended and I run into Stephanie on my way out. She wants to talk today, I say sure because she will just annoy me if I say no.
"Matt": I meet with Shawn after school. "Okay, Shawn, you like Maureen right?" I ask him. "Umm, yeah," he replies, "a lot." I already knew he would say that. "Well, I told her yesterday that I had a crush on her. I know you do too, and to be honest, that’s fine with me. If she picks you over me, I think she knows her own feeling best, right?" I tell him. "Yeah, you're right Matt." he replies. "Good, if she picks you, then I'll still be happy, as long as she is. Just treat her good alright?" I tell him. After all, as long as she's happy, I don't care if it’s not with me.
maure love: Great, Stephanie keeps blabbering on about Matt, Matt this and Matt that. Gosh! Will she just shut her stupid pie hole! "Hey, Stephanie! I need to go home now." I state nicely. "Oh, sure I'll catch up with you later." She replies. I get up from the bench and leave my note from Shawn drops out of my pocket and I see him walking towards me. "Oh, hey Shawn!" my mood has brightened, "I saw you and matt talking, what’s up?"
"Matt": When I arrive home, I notice Stephanie sitting on my doorstep. She waves at me. I walk up to her and sit down next to her. I feel more comfortable around her now that she knows that we're over. But there's still an odd feeling about her. "What's up?" I ask her. We carry on a conversation.
maure love: "I don't know Shawn. Matt and you have feelings for me. Shawn I don't want to hurt him." I reply. "He says he's okay with it." Shawn replies. "Are you sure Shawn?" he nods yes. "Okay I guess we're going out now." He takes my hand and we get some pizza.
"Matt": Stephanie asks me if I like Maureen. "Yeah, I do, but I think she likes Shawn." I reply. "I'm fine with that, as long as she's happy with him." I wouldn't want her to be with me if she was unhappy with it. Stephanie moves closer and puts her head on my shoulder, "That’s one quality that most boys don't have." "Hey, could you get off me Stephy... Stephanie!" I notice that she's not conscious.
Maure love: "Shawn, can we stop by Matt's house really quickly, I want to tell him before school tomorrow." I am worried about what Matt will say. "Sure, I don't mind." Shawn replies. We go to his house and see him and Stephanie sitting together.
"Matt": I lie her down and frantically try to find my keys. Of all the days to forget my cell phone.
maure love: "Matt??" I say loudly. "What’s wrong with Stephanie?" I realize that she's unconscious and call 911. Shawn starts freaking out and hyperventilating, I sit down with him and tell Matt to not panic. The medics should arrive soon. In the mean time Shawn has a panic attack so I comfort him so he doesn't pass out.
"Matt": I can't find my keys, I remember that Stephanie has some sort of condition, that this happens sometimes, she was suppose to out grow it, but at this age, it can be fatal. I then remember that she left some of her medicine at my house; I pick her up and move her away. I step back in kick open my door.
maure love: The paramedics arrive and I don't think Matt has even noticed! I tell them that she's in his house, and he's trying to find her medicine. Matt comes out of the house and yells for them to come in. I'm worried about Shawn, he hasn't calmed down, its worse, he starts crying for some reason. I put my arms around him telling him everything is going to be okay, it seems to be working. Why is he freaking out like this?
"Matt": I give her the medicine with the medic’s permission. She wakes up. "Wha ... what happened?" she asks. "You passed out from your condition, it's a good thing that I didn't throw your medicine away." I started to smile, but then changed emotions. "She'll be okay now, you guys can leave." I tell the medics. "And you better go home too Stephanie." After the medics leave Stephanie gets up and falls. I forgot that she can barely move after her attacks.
maure love: Phew, Stephanie is better. "Matt if you want she can stay at my house, I don't mind." I think Matt is still in love with Stephanie, or at least falling back in love. I think Shawn is still crying, "Shawn, please stop crying, she's alright." I can't believe he's crying, what a sissy. "Sorry, Maureen, my grandfather died and this brought me back to the day it happened." Shawn sobbed through his words. I hug him tightly, trying to comfort him.
"Matt": I pick her up and put her on the couch. "I'll look after her for now, I have some experience with this." I reply. I do still have feeling for her after all, but they're not romantic, at least I'm pretty sure of that. Though I do want to still be her friend. "How's Shawn?"
maure love: "Okay just making sure." I reply. "He's okay I guess, he broke down because his grandpa died a while ago and this reminded him of It." now to break Matt's heart. "Matt, I have something to tell you."
"Matt": I run over to Shawn. "Listen, I saw my grandfather die right in front of me on a hospital bed. It was horrible, and then my grandmother died 3 days later. I know how it feels, its okay to cry sometimes. I know they say grown men don't cry, but that’s not true." Shawn looks up at me and smiles slightly
maure love: Shawn goes and holds my hand in front of Matt. "Sorry Maureen." He says. I can see Matt looking at our interlocked hands. "I'll be right back." I get up and grab Matt's hand walking him near the street.
"Matt": "Where are you taking me?" I hope this won't take long, I need to go help Stephanie. I know she's going to say something about Shawn, I think I'm expecting it though.
maure love: "Chill Matt, this won't take long." I stop at the edge of the corner and stare at my feet. "Matt, I don't want to hurt you but, Shawn asked me out today. I said yes." I don't see his reaction but instead stare at his feet.
"Matt": Yep I was right, I felt a little hurt, but I was ok, it was to be expected. "Right, I think I knew that." I said. It will be better to let her go, if they're meant to be, then theirs no stopping it.
maure love: "Matt, I'm sorry. Maybe...you and I....one day, you should probably check on Stephanie." I think he took it better then I though he would.
"Matt": " You're probably right Maureen ... I'll be seeing you." As I walk back through by broken door I think to myself, yeah, maybe someday.
maure love: I walk over to Shawn. "How did he take it?" He asks. "Better then I thought, but I might have still hurt him." I reply. "He looked a little down when he said bye to me." Shawn says. "Are you okay? I mean not as shaken up." I ask. "I'm fine." I help him off his feet and we walk around for a little, holding hands. This day is bitter sweet.
Matt": "How are you feeling Stephanie?" I ask her. "I'm feeling better," she replies. I look over at the busted door. "It's going to get cold in here tonight, I'm going to move you to my bed," I tell her. I pick her up and put her in my bed. Then I start to walk away. "Wait, where are you going?" she asked, "Aren’t you going to sleep beside me like you used too?" Memories came flooding back, but I shook them away. "No, those time are over," I stated, "I'll sleep on the couch." I go and get a blanket. "But..." she begins. "I'll be fine Stephanie, just get some rest." I left the room and slept on the cold couch.
maure love: That night I had a horrible nightmare about Matt and I, I saw him sitting in his room and we were playing a game. All the sudden he stopped breathing, he had turned blue and passed out. I just sat there watching him. It was horrible and I didn't sleep the rest of the night. The next morning I see Matt across the street, I slow down a little so he doesn't see me.
"Matt": As I walk to school I start to cough, maybe I should have tried to fix that door before I fell asleep.
maure love: My dream comes back to me a little, I'll watch him to make sure he's okay. I see Shawn waving to me and then Matt, great cover blown.
"Matt": "Hey, how are you ... *cough cough* ... how are you guys doing." My head is throbbing, but I can't miss school because of a headache. I cough some more. I feel slightly dizzy.
maure love: "Matt? You aren't looking to well." I can see how pale he looks. "Shawn wait here." I grab Matt's arm and start walking him back to his house. "Matt you look like you're about to pass out."
"Matt": "No, I'm fine," I lie. I turn around. "I'll make it thought the day, don't worry ...," I cough four times, " ... about me."
maure love: "Matt, you need to listen to me for once." I feel like we are old friends again. "You aren't well." I grab his arm again and storm off to his house. "If you are ever going to listen to me now would be the time. You look as if you are going to fall down and I don't like the sound of that cough." I've read up on tons of medical books because of the injuries I have acquired over the years.
"Matt": "No, I'm fine, let me be there for the first three periods, then I'll leave if I don't feel better." If I managed to stay for the 1st three periods, the school didn't count you absent.
maure love: "Okay, I'll walk you home if you don't leave by lunch." I reply, I'm still linked arms with him but I don't realize it for a while.
"Matt": "You might want to let go of my arm, if Shawn sees you like this, he might get mad." As much as I wanted you to hold on, it needs to be said.
maure love: "Oh! Sorry I didn't even realize it." I unlink my arms and we meet up with Shawn. I'm still worried about Matt, but I try not to let it show.
"Matt": "Lets hurry up before I pass out," I say jokingly. We arrive at school, and I make thought the first two periods. It is now the third.
maure love: I've been watching Matt for some time now, he's made it through the first 2 periods of the day and keeps looking worse. I can't wait to take him home. Shawn sits next to me third period and we sit in back of Matt, constantly flirting.
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