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I Am Reasonably Depressed.
I Am Confused.
I Am Lonely.

Those Are The Choice Three Words I Could Use To Describe Me, Now.
Today Was A Great Day, For Almost Everyone I Know.
It Was An Easy Day At School.
It Was Reasonibly Cool Outside.
The Whole Day Seemed To Be Great.

I Woke Up Early, And Then Realised That I Had Only Slept For Three Hours, And Twenty-Nine Minutes.
Never-The-Less, I Got Up, Took Out My Laundry That I Had Done The Other Day Because I Realised That No One Really Does It For Me Anymore, And Proceded To Go Through Daily Stuff (Brushing Teeth, Pack Up Stuff For School, Ect.) And Procede To Attend Class.

Not Two Hours Into My Day, This Kid Named Marcus (Who Lied About Videogames All Day Last Year.) Comes To Me, And Tells Me That People Keep Saying I'm "Goth".
"What Makes Me 'Goth'?", I Asked.

He Told Me That It Was Because I;

"Always Look Sad, Wear Black Shirts, Don't Like Popular Stuff, And Never Talk Much."

So, Wearing A Tool Shirt (Yes, Tool The Band, The Shirt Is A Present From My Uncle In Jail) Being Sad, Not Liking To Talk About The Current Trends And Typical Jibber-Jock They Want Me To, And Not Caring About Current Trends Makes Me "Goth"?

I Told Him I Could Give Two Cares Less What People Had To Say About Me, And Ended The Conversation.
Judging Who I Am By A Present From An Uncle, Not Caring About Trends, And Being A Little Anti-Social?
That's A Bit Stupid...

After That, I Went Home, Put On Some Music, Checked My Mail Here (It Was Empty) And Decided I Should Get Something To Drink.
My Sister Was Down Here, And Her, And Her Friends, Were Taking Cupfuls Of Water And Throwing Them At Eachother. I Opened My Drink, Said That My Dad Was Probably Going To Be Mad About Them Throwing Water All Over The Floor.
My Sister's Friend Cheyanne Threw Water On Me.
I Said That I Had Cleaned These Myself, And They Had No Right To Make Me Have To Do It Again.
Then I Left, To Sleep.
Three Hours, And Twentynine Minutes Of Sleep Is Not Good.
I Took A Nap, Woke Up To Find Out Someone Had Turned The Air-Conditioner Off While I Was Sleeping, So I Was Disgusting, And Sticky From Laying On The Couch.

I Miss My Friends Here,
They're Only Friends I Have...
Cherry's Gone, I Don't Know Where, But I Miss Her So Much...
Haru's Busy, I Really Miss Her, Too...
GE's Been Gone For Awhile, He's In Sports, I Guess...
And Nightmare's Offline, Probably Busy With Something, Too...
I Miss Them.
I Really Do.
I Hope They Are All Okay,
And I Hope They Get All Their Current Tasks Finished,
And That Whatever They're Doing Is So Great, The World Will
Appreciate It.

My Mother Bought A Car Today.
It's A Pea-Green Volkswagen Beatle.
She Loves It, And Was Totally Giddy.
She Asked If I Wanted To Ride In It, With My Sister.
I Did.
We Stopped By Dairy Queen, And I Bought Icecream For My Mother, And Sister.
I Didn't Get Any, I'm Not Big Into Icecream.
They Say That If You Make Someone Else Happy,
You'll Be Happy Too, I Wasn't.
My Sister's Still As Whiney As Possible, She Wants To Get On The Computer And
Try To E-Mail Tori (Our Cousins, Yes, Eric And Tori) But I Said I Deserved It.
She Said 'No!', But Then Left.

I Haven't Eaten Much Today, Just Some Coffee Beans, And A Packet Of Oatmeal (Without Water)

I've Read A Lot, Though.
I Honestly Can't Say I Have Anything Other Than That, To Do.

Christopher Carrion Is Given A Past;

He Lived With His Family In A Massive Mansion,
Where He Shared Rooms With 11 Brothers, And A Sister.
His Sister Used To Sneak Out At Night To Eat Fruit In The Orchard.
She Went Out, But Choked On A Seed, And Died.
His Dad Was So Distraught By It, That He Ordered The Children Into The Home,
And Went To Punish The Killer, A Tree.
He Burned Down The Entire Orchard, Which Accidentally Set Fire To The Home,
Burning All The Children, Except Christopher Who Was Taken Away By His Grandmother, To Death.
His Father Was Never Seen After The Funerals.

Christopher Also Tells Of Princess Boa, The Woman He Loved.
He Said That He Was Sad, And Was A Loathsome Shell Of A Person,
That He Was Cruel, And Sickening,
But That, If He Had A Single Person To Understand Him, And Love Him,
That He Wouldn't Be That Way.
She Turned Him Down, And Tried To Marry Someone Else,
But Before They Wed, She Was Eaten In The Wilderness.
Naturally, People Blamed Carrion, Who Had Nothing To Do With It.

After This, He Grabs Candy's Hands, And Lets Her Glimps At What He Looks Like, On The Inside.
She Sees A "Ghastly Parade Of Monstrocities".
He Says One Thing, "I...Am...Ashamed"

It Is Hinted, That Although He Refuses To Show It,
He Loves Candy, The Way He Did Boa,
But She Flees From Him, After He Confesses His Past.

It Goes Into Some Other Parts, With Letheo, And Fennigan Hob,
But I'm Not Going Into All Of It...

-Feeling A Bit Like Carrion, Tonight...

Chalks.