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...my twisted thoughts...
never wanted my words read but cant make them private and have no other place for them,understand some dont see this so wont know,basicly what im saying is if want to look through my journal its fine,for dont mind anymore,im just sorry its awful..
you make me sick..
there are many things in this world that makes me sick..
here are some..
people that curse the words "i wish my parents would just die!" i hate those people..they are the ones that deserve to die..
because when you dont have parents or have a father or a mother but not the other one...
that reminds me of a song called "foster" by april sixth..
everytime i hear that song a tear rolls down my face..because its so true..
when you dont have a parent(s) you would kill just to have them for a day..
to be able to talk with them(him or her) for a day..for the first time maybe..
just to hear their voice again...to see them...
when you dont have one (or both) you have no idea what it is like..
so when i hear people say i wish my parents,my father,my mother would just die..
it makes me sick..you people make me sick!
they dont deserve to die but you do..for saying that..
but dont get me wrong..i have said it too..i wish my mother would die..
but when i say it i dont mean i wish her dead..i wish what she became dead..
because i see old family videos and she was a different person when he (my father) was still alive..
but after his death she became mean and cruel..she changed..his death darken her..
so when i wish her dead i dont wish her body dead but the person she became i wish i had the mother i see in old videos the one my sister knew..
but the only way to get her back is to have my father back and its impossible...
in a way i have no parents..because she is not who she was..that her is gone..for forever..
so people who say i wish them dead and mean their bodies dead then you are the ones that make me sick..
liers makes me sick..
there is no point in lying because in the end it just causes more problems.. and heartache..
lying is awful..and does no good whatsoever..
liers makes me sick..
people that murder and kill..and do awful things..
they make me sick...why kill..why take anothers life..
if you want to know death then take your own not others...
people who abuse animals..
you people make me sick..
beating up innocent and defenseless animals..that cant tell you to spot because you cant understand their words..
there is no point to hurt them..it is cruel to hurt them..and wrong..
take your anger on something else like hit a wall or something..not them!
you people who abuse animals make me sick..
those who betray someone..betray a friend..telling others their personal secrets..
even if they dont say its a secret..you have to think..and use common sence and realize "i shouldnt tell anyone this" but no..many dont realize this and tell secrets like wild fires spread...
you people make me sick...
people who throw trash into the woods and nature..
not a care what might happen to the animals there..
that what you throw away might kill the animals in that area..and harm nature itself..
like throwing still lit cigarattes into a pile of leaves in the woods..that fire will kill so much life..
that it will take such a long time until everything is back to how it was..
ah people so careless and dont think make me sick!!..
all that life ruined and gone because of foolish actions..
you all make me sick..
and there is so much more out there that people do that make me sick..
just to much to mention...
like the oil spill...how can people not fix the problem before it happened..
people are just so greedy they dont want to spend money to fix a small problem..and look now the problem became into a monsterousity..all this life being killed because people are greedy..
it makes me so sick...it makes me think people can never change..that they will always be greedy..
the greed out there makes me sick!!
and much more makes me sick...
including myself...
im a failure..im hopeless..im cursed..i mess up everything around me..
i hurt so many people..without meaning to..im awful...all i wanted was to help people..animals..
but all i get is death..and people who cut me to shreads...
i make me sick...
you make me sick...
always sick..of these sicknesses...


writer's note:
had this in my mind for awhile now..and heard that song last night "foster" by april sixth..so reminded me of this..all the things that make me sick..though this is just a small percentage of the whole list...nothing else to say really...






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LynBlogXO
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commentCommented on: Wed Nov 24, 2010 @ 01:57am
Stop saying you're worthless and all that crap, you're not.. you're a person who deserves to live just as anyone!


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