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Lets see. Where to start? Hm... *thinks*

Life is pretty interesting right now. College isn't all that bad and I actually feel almost comfortable there. The English teacher told the class not to use first person as much in their writing and talking so getting away from that habit is a big must. It will help with communication and persuasion (so we are told) and I agree with that. There are some times when she gets off track and goes into a subject that isn't related to the class but it provides for a more comfortable environment seeing as the class is 3 hours long. Non-the-less she is very adamant about releasing the class on time and I think the entire class appreciates that so much. In between classes I usually go to the library to either study or work on the computer but if I ever need a snack the cafeteria is open which is around the time I need a good snack. Part of college is a bore though but it is early on in the semester and complaining isn't really reasonable seeing that I only have college two days a week so far.

When it comes to friends Valerie and I are growing ever closer and its really nice to have a friend like her. It just really sucks that we don't live close together. We would probably be amazing friends in real life and listen to music all day. There are other things like: rock paper scissors, playing magic the gathering, chasing the dogs, laughing at the fat dog roll over in her sleep, bowl, look at my limited wardrobe, Calvin and Hobbes, pillow fights, apparently hugging till our arms fell off, get her a MySpace, poker, driving around town, pizza, launching my rocket, playing video games, jamming out on guitar, fighting to get on Gaia, sneak photos, use the laser pointer to tease the dog, race, read, tickle her till she passes out or hits me, torment mom with poppers, cook dinner and horde it from everyone else, go to the beach, swim in our pool, whatever she could think of, and so much more. blaugh Sounds fun!!!!!!!!! 4laugh And she is really nice!!!!!!! heart
Its been awhile since I have had a good friend so I am really enjoying this.

Milo is having some trouble but I am glad to be the friend that is there for him. His confusion and or pain is understandable. Everyone just wants to feel something. He has given me a lot here at Gaia and I appreciate his company. He has also learned a lot about life in the short time that I have known him. He is learning to be strong and he is succeeding very well. I hope the best for him!

On Gaia I am doing pretty well. I got a death whisper and I am thinking about getting a plasma tv. I even made a new dream avatar that I really like but I am starting to see what Milo is saying that its hard to give your gold up even when you have your dream avatar.

When it comes to love there are many different ways I am understanding what I'm building in my heart for the right one. There are often movies that you watch and you wonder why those people can learn to love each other so quick but for people like yourself its so hard. Well the principal thing is understanding why (just like in many things that happen in life). Life and love need expression and creativity, not just lust and hope but also trust and the right grip on the matter. There is so much that I haven't seen that I am seeing now but when it comes to sharing it with someone I lack the composure. sad Perhaps that is what I need though. Time to myself after being brought down by love in the past. I need some time to be myself and understand all the kindness I have in my heart for the people I really care about. In the end there should be no reason to give up and no reason to die but there should be hope that love is plentiful... I just wish I wasn't so used to darkness because after such a long struggle with life I need to be loved and I need to finally be kissed... emo

Overall though, one would say I am pretty content. Happiness and sadness still feel the same to me but I am starting to learn how my skin warms itself when I am happy; how it can feel like the sun is embracing it even in the darkest depth of seclusion; how my heart beats at a rate that keeps my head wanting more and while thoughts go in and go out a certain image keeps them at bay so that I don't loose this valuable existence. Thank you to all the people who make me happy! heart heart heart