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It's been awhile since I have really thought about what I am becoming and what I want to do with my philosophies. It hurts to have today and this situation to be the one that brings everything I need back into focus. The world says you need a career, your parents say you need a life, you say you need a girlfriend. It's all a matter of relativity and one thing I have neglected is that basic law. If there is one thing I regret it's not being perfect. I fear perfect however, but aside from that fear I know what I strive for is what perfection is.

Where has my mind gone? My body can't keep up. I'm learning the ways of simplicity for once but my body doesn't. Please forgive me for that fact. I justly understand I'm acting more coherent and weak and I apologize but there is one thing I need that is once again gone from me: a best friend. My parents have taught me enough about love to support my goals in the future but within loneliness love seems harder. I will continue to live, I will continue to grow old till death takes me, I will start accepting that I am the son of pain and it's going to be alright. I want to do my best for you Valerie. I know you want me happy and I will try but I'm also going to miss you so! You deserve that much from me.

Goodbye Valerie and I do love you for everything that exists between us and in my soul... *cry* goodbye. I'm going to miss you!

Thank you so much for all your support with my life!! Thank you for keeping me confident about my appearance!! I'm sorry I couldn't fully believe it all. I'll do my best to though!! heart *almost cries* Thank you for talking to me about my problems and being such a great friend. You always had something new to say even when I didn't. Thank you for teaching me what it's like to be human. Thank you for being my best friend and having such a great interest in me! I couldn't be happier to have known you as my bestest friend! You really enjoyed supporting my love life too and while I never did anything I love you for always keeping a happy face and letting me say whatever I want. You really are an awesome girl! I'm not going to forget you Valerie!! heart