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~*Stop flirting. . . she's looking.
Since Tanner is like my best-friend now, he tells me everything. When he wants to keep something to himself, he just tells me it's nothing. But lately we've been a bit "Touchy". Sounds wrong, i know. But like hold hand for a second, and i'll hit his stomache to break it up. Or he'll poke my head when he wants my attention. When Ariana confessed she liked him. . . he is treating her like garbage. Knowing he has a Girlfriend, he feels a bit weird with her. So i'm basically the only friend girl he has. Kayli is ignoring Tanner lately, he's trying so hard to get her to talk to him. But she's being a bit bitchy. That was mean of me, but i have to admit it. If i was his girlfriend, i'll treat him tenderly. Well, i do anyways, but i tough him up. I keep reminding myself not to say, mom, so he can just keep on smiling. I don't like it when he cries, nor frown and just be in solitude. I'm not trying to steal him away form her. . . like she'll care. But i don't want to get between them.
it's gonna happen anyways
I just know it. I don't think i can be very good at being a girlfriend. I'm a bit to romantic. So they come to me for advice. David, he looks at me differently also. His Girlfriend Cara is the jealous type. So we talk when she ain't around. When she goes to highschool, i believe his life would be easier.
Kris, eh, normal. He talks to all the girls, i will not come between him and lizzy. That's the best couple in the whole school. They are cute, they argue like a married couple. It makes me happy to see them together.
But anyways, i am still concerned. . . well. .. always concerned about Tanner. Then Ariana, because she seems a bit jealous.
"It looks like Tanner has grown a bit fond of you. . . "
shut up. . . just shut up. I want to help him, without hurting him. I want to be there, instead of him being all alone. I want to cheer him on, when he falls of his skateboard, cheer him to keep on practicing. i'm going to act retarded, to hide what i'm all worried about. He's good like that. He just can tell if there is something wrong.
Remain. . .
I want it to stay that way.
Forever. . .
I want him to smile. . . everyday. . . see him laugh with everyone.
Friends. . .
I can just watch from a distance. I like it that way. I don't want him to see my eye's from a distance.
It's okay. . .
I like it that way. . . it doesen't break him. . . it surely doesen't feel so bad.
Don't do it. . .
If i ever told him. . . he'll reject me, and leave me like Ariana. . .
Why?
Why does my chest hurt then?
 NinteyDegrees_South · Sat May 17, 2008 @ 10:59pm · 0 Comments |
