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~*New life.

My Step-Dad is getting married with another woman.
I kind of got the vibe he was meeting someone when i saw him for the first time in a long time.
He kind of said it in the lines of, "This woman i'm hanging out with invited me to one of her dog shows. . . "
Hanging out boldly comes off as meeting someone. I'm not stupid.
I feel hurt. Because he's hiding this from my mother and I.
They're actually still in the process of seperating their stuff from each other. So whenever my mom drops a call, he calls back a week later.
"Call me anytime if you need help. I'll call back."
******** that dad. We rarely call him too. My mom has been slowly dying, I guess. She fell off the bridge. So lastnight when my dad called back after not answering her call for 2 days, my mom blows up.

"When do I ever call you for help?! I let you see Arriya because i believe you're the father figure she needs! . . . NO! Not anymore, i'm tired! She's not a doll, blue! We can't go off and on like this, I can't just wait around for you to bring her back..."

Her shell cracked and I heard her start to cry. Scream louder. Done.
She comes upstairs, tells me to give her my cellphone. She deletes my father's number. "If I catch you texting or talking to blue again, you're dead." I was fine with that.

It turned out whenever i said, 'he had only friday off,' was basically a lie. He had the weekends off too. But he spent that time with his fiance. Yes. He's getting married to this woman after only 3 months. My mother, I guess was hurt. Yes, she has a boyfriend. But it's not serious. I guess she was hurt because he had all the time in the world to see me...but he dumped me for his fiance.
He always argued to see me. But, you're throwing me away for a woman you've been dating for only 3 months..?
I felt hurt too. This really didn't sound like my father. I don't want to see him when i know he has a new life starting. I'm not part of his dream anymore; i don't want that woman to consider me part of her life too. No. Because i'll feel obligated to meet her. I hate her.

I love my mom.

I'm completely fatherless.

******** it.