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This isnt about lebron, but im happy they made it to the finals! 23 is my age now.. smile pirate

i didnt get a chance to talk to her, i didnt even get a chance to finish the message that i was supposed to send to her, and worse, a lot were dissapointed or been hurt because of my actions.. To think that i havent suffered enough the night before my bday and the night of my bday itself.. Its just sad, yet there is no one to blame, its so shallow, its just me who make things complicated.. Its just sad.. Its like, for me, i just want to talk to her, yet, i cant say it when i have the chance, plus i know, if i would be given the opportunity to be able to say it, it would not change anything, it might even make things worse.. A lose-lose situation, i really feel like a loser, i also feel that everybody thinks the same.. I just wish that anything that i do, she understands that it is just because of what i feel, there is no pressure from her, i dont want her to have any problems because of me, i just wish that she is happy..

Assertiveness, talked to aki and josie, and they told me that i tend to give too much, that is how i understood what they said.. That might be the reason why im so unattractive.. Hmmm.. That was the reasom i became aloof, but i guess that is not what they mean.. But the important thing is that they noticed that when i like someone, i always try to please them, they were afraid, that i might be abusing myself.. Hmmm.. But that is where my stubborness kicks in.. Im usually aware that somethings are pointless, yet i still continue to "follow my heart"..

sadness is not always measured by the number of tears you've cried t_T

sometimes its measured with the number of smiles you faked cry

Snow Patrol – Signal Fire
The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you,
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me,
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out,

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever(2x)

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes,

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

There you are standing right in front of me (x2)
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

No I won't wait forever(x3) sad