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I Feel Bored.
I'm Going To Write A Page Here About Myself,
My Past, My Present, And My Future.

My Name Is Zack.
I Was Born In Lousiana, Del City, I Believe.
We Wern't There For Long.
I Only Remember Some Vague Things From Lousiana.
I Remember An Ugly Penstripe Sofa, And A Zebra-Print Blanket.
I Remember My Grandmother, And My Parents.
And Going To The Mardi Gras With My Dad And His Friend Mike.
Nothing Else.
I Was Very Young.

I Remember We Were Stationed To Hawaii By The Millitary.
We Were Looking Through Houses, And The Inside Of The One We Could Afford Was Riddled With Bugs.
It Was Disgusting.
There Was This Red Dirt That Was Everywhere In Hawaii,
It Stained Your Feet Red, If You Walked On It,
And I Was Always Barefoot, At The Time.
I Was Very Carefree, And I Liked To Play With Other Children.
My Friends Were Mitchel, Nathan, And Another Boy Named Kyle.
I Went To A Large White-And-Yellow Concrete School, I Remember We Had No Playground, Or At Least, Not Much Of One, And As Soon As I Was A Grade Higher,
And We Didn't Go On The Playground, They Built One, And I Was Always Down That I Never Got To Play On It.
But, We Had A Library.
I Got To Go To The Library A Lot.
I Remember My Favorite Book There (That I Never Found Again, Because I Was Young And Didn't Know How To Use The Catalogue System) Was Called 'Killer Plants', It Had All These Strange Plants That Did Different Things, My Favorite One In The Book Was Called An 'Indian Pipe', It Was A Transparent, Small Plant.
I Remember That We Moved, But I Don't Remember Anything I Did To Say Goodbye,
But, We Got Onto The Plane, And Flew To The Newest Place We Were Stationed To.
England.
Hadenham, England.

It Was A Cold, Cold Place.
I Remember Thinking That, When We Got To The Hotel Complex We Were Going To Be Staying At. It Was A Very Nice One. I Remember That I Was So Surprised That I Could See My Breath, Because I Remember Once, And Only Once, When I Could See My Breath In Hawaii.
I Remember Trying To Be Tough, And Not Wearing A Jacket, And Carrying A Lot Of Suitcases As We Went Into The Hotel.

That Was Also The First Place I Got A Taste Of Techno Music.
Previously, I Was Into The Backstreet Boy, And Whatnot, All Thanks To
My Cousins, Jared, Eric, And Tori, Even If They'll Never Admit To Listening To Them. But, Moving On, We Were Staying At This Hotel, And Eventually, We Found A House That We Bought.
It Was A Small, One-Floored House, With A Small Backyard, And A Dead Tree In The Front. I Loved The Backyard. We Lived Next To A Farm-Field Where Horses And Cattle Were. We Had This Dying Pear Tree There, And I Got To Feed The Animals There.
I Went To This Little School, Where We Had Absolutely No Playground.
They Had A Blacktop With Painted Pictures And Such On It.
The 'Cool' People There Played Soccer, Though They Called It Football.
I Remember Telling My Dad That They Had Asked Me If I'd Like To Play Football,
And How I Didn't Want To, Because I Was Afraid To Get Tackled, But Then They Explained That They Spoke A Little Bit Different There.
I Remember That We Had To Wear Uniforms There, A Blue Pair Of Pants, And A White Shirt.
So, I Went There For The Next Few Days, And I Started To Play.
I Okay, Pretty Good, Actually.
But, There Was This Kid Named Hans, And He'd Punch Up, On Me.
I Remember I Was Playing And In The Middle Of The Game, He Came From Behind Me And Tried To Choke Me.
I Cried To The Teacher And Told Them That He Tried To Choke Me.
They Sent Him To The Pricipal's Office.
I Remember That I Quit Going To Recess.
I Just Sat On The Curb That Was Next To The Gate That You Used To Get Out.
The Teacher's Noticed This, And Asked Me How Many Kids I Played With.
I Said None.
They Told Me That If I Asked, I Could Set Up A Kid To Play With Me.
Of Course, I Was Young, And Believed That That Was True.
I Asked To Play With A Kid Who Was 'Cool', Named Adam.
He Shrugged Me Off, And I Was Back To Getting Beat Up,
Or Sitting At The Gate Where I Was Pretty Much Alone.
I Eventually Brought Poke'mon Card To Class.
No One There Had Heard Of Them, And Eventually I Became Popular,
Because I Had These Cards, And No One Else Did.
But, I Was Still Getting Beat Up By Hans.


I Remember My Mother Looking At My Body.
It Was A Mass Of Bruises.
I Begged That She Send Me To Houston, Texas To Be With Eric, Tori, And Jared,
Where I Wouldn't Get Beaten.

But, We Kept Going For A Little While.

Eventually, I Started Stopping At This Place Called 'The Eastern Gallery'.
It Was A Little Shop Where They Had All Sorts Of Chinese, Japanese, And Asian Things. I Loved It There.

After A Few Months, We Moved To Avoid That School.
I Started Going To This School Where I Rode The Bus.
I Made Friends With Two Of The Kids There, A Kid Named Kwame, And Another Named Mitch. But, Eventually, We Moved Again, Because Of Reasons I Don't Know.

We Lived In This Nice House, Behind A Youth Center, Where My Mother Started Working. I Went To That Place.

I Didn't Have Many Friends,In Fact, For The First Month Or Two All I Did Was Read In Library They Had. Eye-Witness Guide Books, And Culture Books.
But That Soon Changed.
I Made A Friend Named Matthew, And After A Few Months,
I Was Looking For Him In An Assembly Held At The Youth Center Gym.
I Poked The Back Of This Kid Who Was Wearing The Same Jacket As Him,
And A Different Face Glared At Me When They Turned.
Little Did I Know, This Angry Face Would Later Become My Best Friend.

My Mom Told Me That This Boy's Dad Was Going To Korea For A Few Weeks, And He Would Be Staying With Us.
His Name Was Edward Marsh.
That Was The Angry-Faced Kid!
Either Way, We Became Quick Friends, And We Did Everything Together.
We We Almost Famous.
If I Was Somewhere, They Could Tell I Knew Eddie, By How I Acted,
And How He Acted. We Were Like Brothers.
I Remember When The Playstation Two Came Out, And He Got It.
We Were Playing Onimusha: Warlords On It.
That's About When I Went Through A Culture Obsession.
All Eddie And I Did Was Talk About Egypt, Japan, And Greece, All Settings Of Games And Such That We Enjoyed.
We Knew Lots Of Stuff About Those Places.
I Remember We Used To Get Like, 5 Pounds (A Little More Than 5 Dollars) From His Dad, Who Was An Angry, Chain-Smoker, To Go Check His Mail At The Far-Away Postal Office.
We'd Get On Our Bikes, And Haul Tail To Get There, Then Occaisionally Ditch The Mail, And Go Buy Candy And Stuff.

I Remember We Did Chores And Stuff, And Got Twenty Bucks!
We Went To The Arcade Down At The Bowling Alley And Played 'Till We Beat Metal Slug.
We Had Like, $1.75 Left, And My Mom Was Like, 'You Two Spent $20 At The Arcade!?'
But, We Made It on The High-Scores List, And That's All That Mattered.

But, All Good Things Come To An End.
We Received Orders To Minot, North Dakota.

I Remember My Mother Crying.
She Hated The Idea Of Moving Here.
But We Did, And It Was Alright.
It Was Very Hot, Compared To The Home We'd Left.
We Eventually Settled In, And I Went To A School Called 'Erik Ramstead'
I Hated It.
I Remember I Had A Breakdown, Because The Teacher Hated Me.
It Wasn't That I Wasn't Good In The Class, It Seriously Was That The
Teacher Didn't Like Me, She Would Say I Did SOmething Wrong When Even My Parents Said I Was Right.
I Exploded In The Classroom, And I Had To Go Into The Counceller's Office.
She Was Very Kind, And Allowed Me To Let Out All The Stress I Had.
She Said It Was All Between Us.
But When I Said Some Things I Shouldn't Have (Very Angry Things Like 'I Hope She Chokes!' And Such)
She Quickly Informed Others, And They Put Me Into Counciling.
My Parents Said I Couldn't play Video Games, Or Anything.
I Cried.
They Had Taken Away My Birthday Present, Which I Had Just Recently Gotten.
Councilling Sucked.
Every Month I Had To Go In, And She'd Ask How I Was Feeling And Such,
And Tell Me That My Behavior Was Flawed And Such.
She Also Said I Had Just Recently Gotten Past Post-Traumatic Stress Order That England Had Induced.
But, The Counceller Spazzed out When My Mom Called Her.
She Said 'How Did You Get My Number?!' And Freaked Out.
My Mom Said She Was Very Paranoid, Because She Probably Works With Some 'Scary People'.

I Passed That Class, But I Was Only 9, And I Was In The Sixth Grade, Because I Had Started Schooling Early.
They Said I Should be Held Back Because Of My Age, But, My Mom Said That Since
I Had Passed, She Didn't Want People To Think I Had Failed.
So, I Went To A Different School, The One I Go To Now.
I Passed All My Classes For The Next Two Years With Straight-A's.
I Became Kind Of Famous For The Drawing In Class,
And Lots Of People Tell Me I Look 'Less Depressing' This Year.
I Just Tell Them I Have Friends, Somewhere.
(That's You Guys, If You Can't Tell wink )

During My Stay At Ramstead, I Would Meet Someone Who I Would Later Come To Hate. Kris Morales. He Would Be The First Influence That Would Turn Me Towards J-Rock. His Brother-in-Law Showed Me Some Malice Mizer, And I Loved It.
But, Then I Realized That Malice Mizer's Illuminati Wasn't The Best Song Out There,
And With The Help Of The Artist, Who At The Time Was And Probably Still Is My Favorite, And Most Influential, Introduced Me To Dir en Grey. I Was Very Depressed At The Time I Had Discovered Them, And Quickly Latched Onto Them.
But, My Constant Playing Of Their Hate-Filled Music Quickly Caught Eye Of My Parent. My Mother Pulled Me Aside From The Stereo And Said Told Me That She Didn't Think It Was So Good To Play That Constantly, And That It Wasn't Good For Depression To Be Allowed To Sit And Wallow Like That. But, I Was Angry, And Kyo And I Sat Together In It For A Long Time.

Over That Period Of Time, I Became Extreamly Bitter, Angry And Apathetic.
Probably From My Dad Being Gone. I Hated Him For Leaving, And Missing So Much.
People Told Me I Looked 'Emotionless', And Would Often Call Me 'Goth'.
But I Said I Wasn't, And That I Was Happy, But I Wasn't.
Then I Found hide. I Found Out That Happiness Was Great, And That If hide Had Died, Then I Had Better Be Happy While I Can Still Feel.
So, I Quickly Pulled Into Optomism.
So Much Focus On Music, No?


I've Always Wanted To Visit Seattle.
Maybe Even Live There.
Because Me And Eddie Used To Collect Magi-Nation Cards.
And I Read That They're Headquatered In Seattle.
Then I Heard It Rains A Lot There,
And Wanted To Go There.
I Never Put Much Thought Into What I Want To Be When I Grow Up.
I Though Maybe A Traveller, Just Some Nomad That Travled Around In Asia And Africa, But Then I Quickly Revised My Thoughts When I Read What Kinds Of Things I'd Face There; Starvation, Poverty, War, And Sickness.
I Didn't Know, Then.
I Kept Waiting For Some Idea.
Then, I Thought, Maybe A Psychiatrist?
I Didn't Want To Stare Serial Killers In The Eyes, Though.
So I Was Thought I'd Want To Be A Counceller, Dispite That I Don't Enjoy Their Company.
Basically, That's My Story.
Up Until Now,
But I Don't Want To Put What You All
Know About Me Now In Here.
Also, My Finger's Are Kind Of Tired...

I'm Feeling Kind Of Depressed To.
I Want To Draw Skeletons And Such...