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I've Always Believed, A Little, That Fortunes Are Right.
But, That The Only Reason They Come True, Or Are Right Is Because You Expect It Now, So The Slightest Thing That You Usually Would Have Ignored Could Be The Anwsered Fortune.

I Strolled Down To The Gas Station This Afternoon, And Picked Up A Bottle Of Apple Soda, And A Pack Of Sour Skittles.

During My Walk, I Was Thinking Of Ideas, And Scenes To Put In A Story.

As I Opened My Soda, JONES Soda Co. Gave Me A Fortune:

'You Can Now Write With Determination.'

I Just Sort Of Smiled And Walked Home.
Coincedince?
Probably. But Still A Little Neat wink

Maybe I Think Too Much.
Maybe I Put Too Much Though To Small Things Like This.

But, A Little Superstition Never Hurt Anyone, I Suppose.

I've Been Worried A Lot.
About My Future.
About Being In A Place I Don't Want To Be,
With People Who I Don't Want To be With,
And Doing Things That I Shouldn't,

I Don't Ever Want To Do Something Like That.
I Don't Ever Want To Ruin Someone Else's Life,
To Hurt Someone Else.

And My Biggest Fears,
My Two Biggest Fears Of All,
Are That I'll Hurt Someone,
And That I'll Do Something Terrible,
Not Meaning To, And Pay The Price.

And These Fears Have Nearly Ruled 30% Of My Day
For About The Past Four Years.
But Now, I Think I May Have The Solution.
I Think I May Have Gotten If Off My Mind And Chest.

But While Doing So, I Lost Sight Of My Friends.
I Put People I Hold Dear On Hold.
And I'm Sorry If I Hurt Your Feelings.
I Didn't Mean To.
I Was Just Coming Clean About
Something I Wouldn't Admit To Myself,
Let Alone Anyone Else.

And I Feel Good Now.
I Want To Listen To Something Happy.
I Want To Smile With Friends,
And I Want To Make Something Out Of My Life.

Sure.
Big Talk For A Person Who's Practically Fourteen, Right?
I Bet To You, I Have No Clue What I'm Talking About.
That I Have No Idea How The World Is.
And You're Right.
I Probably Don't, But I'll Try My Best.
I Want To Be The Happy Person.
I Want To Be The Honest One.
I Want To Be The Kind One, Lending His Happiness To Friends.

And I Will Do My Best To Achieve That.

-Chalks.