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Please....please no.....no...no more....i cant.....no, i cant anymore......

tears stain my face as my fingers tremble around a special object.....somthing treasured by me, that was of great importance. my throt, hurts so bad....and i can fell my heart, slowing.

no....this cant happen.....not gain....it hurts so bad.....i cant do it anymore....

i try to wipe my eyes dry but no mater how many times i do, the salty droplets still wash down. i can think of all the laughs we shaired...everything we did....we did together......you brought so much joy into my life....id thought it last forever...

why....why again.....why do you do this to me god...what did i do to you to anger you so much....that you pain me.......scar my heart so bad i just want it all to stop......

change isent always good but i thought it was....you were scared, and i was there for you always no mater what.....and i made you happy....happier then you said you ever were in a long time....

so why........why..........my heart cant take it.........not another blow......a blow so powerful...and deep as i felt for her.....i would never love again......i wouldnt force her to love me......no......never......but i dont want to lose her.....my own greed wanting her for me.....my humanly needs....but i wont let that atke over...i do not control her.....out of all women ive been through she is the first to see me who i was.....and respect me.......treat me right......be there for me.......were no others words could reach.......what have i done.....were did it all end.......how can i save it...tell me please.....ill do anything.......i love you.....

the words flow so easly out of my mouth now, i bearly have time to reconize it myself as it passes by....

the tears has stoped and i have calmed...thus my poem shall end....