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This is so...new...this feeling inside me for her. i dont know were it came from or why it has happened but im happy now. for the first time in a long time, im happy...but...there is another. i found happiness with two and i may have to pick someday. i want to get to know them both more, get close to them both but not so close that when i have to pick, i will hurt the other. i dont know what to do, both of them came to me at the same time, and my life to that point...had been a dark and hollow shell that i used for a body. i played on gaia to take my angur out on things...rped a person who i wanted to be...who i could be and yet by doing that...ive meet them both. Love is such a strong word that for me means a lot. i would only say it if i ment it, and ive said it to both of them. i know that things could change in a few years but it still hurts to know that i will end up hurting one of the women i have so deeply feel in love with...what a tangled web i have woven...i almost look at myself as a horid person for doing this...falling in love with two at the same time...im no better then the men i fight, well maybe better then them but still....