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Its four am
And I’m still awake
Wondering
If you’re worth these terrible mistakes

I think I’ve given up in you
Given up
All I’m trying to do

But I don’t want to

I still want to believe in your lies
But I think that
This is the last time I’ll fall for you

I don’t want to fall
But I’m falling anyways

And I’m trying to forget it all
But wiping it away
Won’t do any good at all

So when I’m lying there alone
Wondering if breathing is worth it
There are these things
Unspoken
That you need to hear
I’m worth it

I don’t care if don’t understand this fear

So now I’m running so far away
But every time
I try to run
I fall
And I’m falling
Crawling away
And if this is the last time
Then this is all I pray
That you know
Everyday is the last day
So fade it all away
And hope this to be
My final mistake

It’s almost morning
The sun is rising high
Acting if it found its reason to live
And why

I am falling
Falling down
Knowing that reasons lost

If you were it
If you were the reason I existed
Then has this light
Faded back
Into the nothing-ness it is?

Every whisper
Every shout ever heard
Is slowly slipping away

Every time I try to find it
Again
It gets away
It falls away
Again and again

I’m trying to forget it
But every time I come
To regret it

So when I have slowed my breathing
When I finally deicide
It’s not worth it
There is something that you need to know

I don’t care if don’t understand this fear

So now I’m running so far away
But every time
I try to run
I fall
And I’m falling
Crawling away
And if this is the last time
Then this is all I pray
That you know
Everyday is the last day
So fade it all away
And hope this to be
My final mistake


The clouds so dark are hanging over me
Whispering make this constant bleeding stop
But I want to know that I’m real
That I consist of this hurt

And if this heart was broken once more
I think that I could be done
No more stitches, no more sewing
I think I’ve given up

But I don’t want to
Not yet
I want to fight
I want to prove I am worth it

I want to see if you’ll share it
All the happiness you have ever known

I want to feel you die alone

I don’t care if don’t understand this fear

So now I’m running so far away
But every time
I try to run
I fall
And I’m falling
Crawling away
And if this is the last time
Then this is all I pray
That you know
Everyday is the last day
So fade it all away
And hope this to be
My final mistake

Whispers in my ear
Pain in memories
All being lost

This confusion is no different
From everything forgot

And I’m trying just so hard
To run away
But I think I want to catch my breath
To make it all stop

I don’t want to run
I want to stand up
Want to prove to the world
I’m worth its loss

Even if I’m not heard
At least I tried
Tried to tell you I’m not fine

So forget every word once spoken
It’s this voice you’ll never hear
I am woken
Finally knowing that

What I fear has came to past

And I don’t think

I can last

So now I’m running so far away
But every time
I try to run
I fall
And I’m falling
Crawling away
And if this is the last time
Then this is all I pray
That you know
Everyday is the last day
So fade it all away
And hope this to be
My final mistake

The first time I died
They didn’t burry me with you
I didn’t understand why
I’m just as dead inside

Right now
I’m just pretending
In this role I play
To be that happy child
Ready for the day

But if you looked in the deleted scenes
Then maybe you could realize
I’m not what I seem

I’m not trying to understand it all
I won’t pretend I do
I don’t want to understand it all
Because then this confusion will become too clear

And that’s just something I’m used too
I fear

So now I’m running so far away

Accepting this fall
And every time
I run
I fall
And I’m always falling
Running away
And this is the last time
Then this is all I pray
That you know
That today is the last day
So fade it all away
And hope this to be
My final mistake