well, i have lived through the night and I am stessed out a lot as well as very ill. My boyfriend Andrew tryed to calm me down but so did my friend Crystal. I don't know what I am going to do now because my mom is still in that mood again and she doesn't care about how I feel. I don't feel like I am going to make it that much longer. I am trying to control my emotions but my body can't control it. My head can't control it. I miss the ones that I truely love. I miss my brother, my sister, my in-laws, my friends, my best friends, but most of all, my boyfriend. I miss reality because I am not normal and I don't know how much I can take. When I woke up, I found a knife on my bed but no marks so that was a close call. That means that I am still sleepwalking and that I almost killed myself again in my sleep. I don't know what I am going to do now. I mean, I can't control this. I hope I can stop this soon or I may end up waking up in heaven or hell. I may just never wake up and exist anymore....
DarkLotusAngel · Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 07:15pm · 0 Comments |