He says I should be happy
He thinks that I don't need him
He expects me to think
I would accept the fact he is with another
I know I want him to be happy
I know all he wants me to do is be happy
I know I can't do anything about it
I wish there was a way
If I even TRIED to do anything, he would hate me
He would disown me
I would lose him even then and now
I just love him so much
Ever since that warm April in the spring
I instantly fell in love with him
I never wanted to let him go...
Not now, not ever...
Then something happened which I would never forget...
Ever since that cold January afternoon
When he told me that he was breaking up with me
My heart ripped to shreds
He said that he would be with me forever
THAT was the hugiest lie that he told me
He loves her more than I have ever seen
Darkness, rage, and jealousy surround my heart
I need him so bad but, he doesn't need me
I should go away forever
He broke up with me for reasons I will never understand
I wasn't good enough for him
I was just causing pain in his life
I'm just too young to understand
He asked me to marry him
He broke up our "pre-engagement"
I heard a voice
It said, "Don't be blind"
That voice was right from the beginning
I never have relationships that last forever
Not even for one ******** year
He was done with me
He didn't want to deal with me anymore
I was selfish and now I am paying the ultimate price
I just can't get around him
I love him sometimes
I hate him sometimes
I just can't live without him
A voice says, "Don't let her take him away from you.. you could do something"
The other says, "Don't do anything, it won't work, and you will still lose him"
I should just give up
I know I will never get him back ever again
Their bond was just too strong
I wish I was like her
She charishes him more did I do
I say, "I love you and I want you back"
He just doesn't understand
He is the one that I truely desire
He is one reason I breathe and live
He is also the reason why I cry a lot
I am just a stupid little 15 year old
I will never grow up
I will never understand
He said he would get with me again if something happened
He said that this relationship would end up with pain
I know he was just trying to make me feel better
My soul, my heart, filled with sorrow
I will never be pure
When he told me that day
I wanted to kill myself
I don't want him to leave me
I just can't live without him
I just have to accept the fact
It tore my world apart
It tore my heart apart to pieces
I just want to kill myself and I no one can change it
I lost him forever
I just can't take it anymore
I cry as a type this
I just want him back
I guess... I guess I will never be truely happy
I guess... I should just give up
I guess... I should just end it all... and get it over with
*DarkLotusAngel*
DarkLotusAngel · Mon Apr 02, 2007 @ 10:19pm · 0 Comments |