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~*"But. . ."

Lastnight. Was pretty dramatic.
I was texting Tanner annd Kenny. I felt, like always Tanner was getting closer to me. More attached. Emotionally. The ignoring stuff was bugging me.
I would list our conversation but it's pretty boring. I was forcing him because he was so goddamn shy. He didn't tell me how he felt. Then he said it.
'I like you. I like you alot-'
Not a shocker but it felt nice to know this from him than others. I was smiling. I felt accomplished.
'But. . .'
But, it didn't feel as great. I didn't like him as much as I did. It wasn't fun. It was like getting a perfectly new toy, then not wanting to do anything else with it because it wasn't as fun as you expected it to be.
'I think Kenny likes you- i think you might like him back.'
Oh.
'I asked him- he didn't deny it. If he likes you, you would be totally leading him on.'
Oh.

Oh. Oh, was right. Kenny? Kenny? No. The baby talk, the honey back, the miss you's, was just for fun. This is all for fun. We're bored. Kenny makes me happy, really. But him?
Tanner. Tanner? What- i was confused. Because these two boys are friends. then confessing to me, and then saying kenny likes me? They're friends. Frends. Yaoi couples- whatever.

Stay strong for me, then, Tanner.
'Oh. I will.'

I pray to God that this won't become a huge fight.
I'm not worth it.