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~*Explode

It's amazing to keep on talking to some friend, or ex-boyfriend, and still have a weak trust with them. Maybe i don't trust him completely, but he trusts me, and after telling me what he did, made all the anger and frustration from yesterday, last week, everyday, explode. I was talking to to him on the phone, but i was texting him. I was angry.
What the hell?! What? Huh, Deon, do you want to be cool now?
'No. It just happened. It felt good though.'
Want to breath some fresh air, huh? Go outside and breath some ******** real, clean air.
'I promise. I won't do it again- i went to health class, and i don't want that in my body. . .'
You know what makes me laugh, is that this didn't even go through your ******** skull that it's bad for you in the first place. What are you? Are you to high to notice?
It felt so off. It was like everything i was angry about, i took on him. But he deserved it, i was lecturing him like a mom. I was just lost- the hell he should be upset.
He won't tell me who gave it to him. So i talked to Chris and asked him if he could keep a close eye on Deon. He's such a screw-up. I'm a screw-up, all my friends are somewhat all screwed up.

If he smokes again, i'm going to kill everyone in nisqually.

Then everything else that happens, makes me want to explode. I probably hurt some feelings in school- oh s**t, big deal. But i can't help it because it's they're just i don't know- not themselves. Then they do things that are funny, but it's just so ******** up.
I don't think i can ever be sad anymore. More like pissed off.

It's actually better to get mad than sad. Really, being sad is annoying.