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Hello all.
It's me.
Here I am again to tell you about the writhing twisting thing that is my life. Today was Monday... I hate Mondays. I hate school more. I'm sick of having to "learn." I know more than most of that whole student body. But, no... By law, I have to be there. I need a peice of paper to say that I'm academically achieved enough to go to college or get a decent job. Damn, we need to change that system; it's terribly flawed.

Sus got back last night, so seeing here made the day better. Got to be with my friends. Heh, thats about all that keeps me in school; the chance to be with my friends. Simi made some more death threats over the Boob .gif I sent her. I found it quite amusing.

Hmm, I'm giving some serious contemplation to selling my DF404 after I fix it up. It's getting to be too much maintenance. I wish I had enough for a Warwick Vampyre. Oh, gods, those are nice. Thats like, a $700 dollar bass, but it's well worth it. I might sell my guitar too. It's just a Squire Strat, and I don't ever use it anymore. When I need a guitar, I use my acoustic.

Ah, life is a funny thing. I don't think I actually live life. I prefer to sit back and watch all the foolish drama that plays out in my simple teenage world. People striving to be the most trendy or popular. People today have no honor or code of ethics, its all who can be the coolest. No one dresses in what makes them comfortable, it's always the trendiest brands. Take me. I don't dress the way I do to be "Oh so GAWTH." I dress in all black and makeup because I choose to and I like to. It's a shame, really, that other people can't see the irony of what they're doing. They live life trying to be on top instead of just living. No one thinks about what happens after. Where will all your Abercrombie & Fitch, Adidas, and Tripp get you? No where; dead, just like everyone else. Just live. I do, I try not to dwell on the past, try to live in the moment, though, I admit, I do fail miserably. But I can't complain. I have the most amazing girlfriend and the ******** best friends anyone can ever hope to have. I don't try to find the meaning of life simply because there isn't one. Life is gonna end, thats inevitable. So if ther was a meaning to life, it would simply be to live. Thats all you can do. You live until you can live anymore. And in your last moments, smile or laugh. Thats all you can do. There is no point in crying over something you can't stop, so you may as well be happy. I know when I die, I'll laugh. Granted, I will be sad. I don't want to leave my friends behind.

Ugh, I really wish I could eat... When mom picked me up today, she had gotten me a cheese burger. That didn't stay down too long. I was home for about ten minutes, the hurled. That probably has something to do with my liver. Oh, well. Thats why they have vitamins, supplements, and protein shakes. It's annoying though. Somedays I can eat just fine, so I think, "Cool, maybe now I can get back to normal." But the next day, same thing, I eat dinner, and throw up... Massive sleep deprivaton and malnutrition must have some serious repercussions on your health. Meh, I haven't be hospitalized yet.

To anyone who reads this, sorry if I wasn't on earlier, wasn't feeling too good, so I layed down and wished the ceiling would fall on me. And another note, If this has touched you in anyway whatsoever, even if it made you laugh, comment. and in the comment, put the word "computer" in the post. That way, I know you actually pay attention when I spill my guts for you all to read.

Peace out, love ya all.