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******** all of today...
Seriously, I'm in such a bad ******** mood right now. I want to rip my hair out, total my whole ******** room and jump out my window.

Nothing has gone right today.

Art wants to take away my goddamned computer because apparently, I've made like 14 calls to ******** NEW JERSEY. I don't ******** know anyone in New Jersey, and then he says that all my IMing is costing him money. Bull, ********, s**t. I hope that fat ******** has one too many donuts or something and gives himself a heart attack. I'm sick of his bullshit.

Robin isn't online, and right now she's the only one I want to talk to... She said she'd be online tonight, even though she was gonna be at a friends... Now she's not online, and I don't like it. You know... if she's gonna spend the night at some guy friend's house, she can at least like, make an effort to get ahold of me so that I can talk to her, even for just a minute.

******** this ******** day. I went for a walk and that didn't even make me feel any better. Why can't she just get online so I can talk to her...?

I seriously just want to put my ******** forehead through the ******** drywall in my room. I don't give a flying ********. I cost Art SO MUCH ******** MONEY, I might as well cost him a little more and really earn his pissy attitude, right?

I can't make this any more clear. Its NOT my goddamned fault that I don't have a ******** job. I've ******** tried to get a job since I quit Movie Gallery and no one will hire me. No one will even ******** call me back, and then when I call them to see if there is anykind of update, they've either lost my application, or they're "not hiring right now."

I ******** went everywhere, filled out applications with a smile on my face, said I was willing to work any hours they gave me, and showed a lot of interest, and no one ******** cares. And now my parents think I'm just a ******** bum and won't get a job...

Well I guess I'm a goddamned, ******** bum. They say it ******** enough, must be true by now... About the only person who thinks I even give a s**t is Robin, but no, she's out with some guy friend...

I try to deal with it. I try to just smile and say "Have a good time," but I'm sorry. I'm ******** jealous. I don't mind her hanging out. I don't want her spending the ******** night there... At least not before I actually see her. Then I'll have closure. I'll have her in my arms and I'll know that all of this isn't just some ******** stupid internet pipe dream...

What the ******** ever. ******** the lot of you. I'll manage this s**t all on my ******** own. I've done it for years now, why bother changing that? It seems to work well enough, so to hell with all of you...






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AmazingTentacleFox Shippy
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 02:37am
For some reason this year its harder to get jobs, I was lucky. So for some reason people aren't hiring right now. Its not your fault.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 23, 2008 @ 03:03am
Thanks, but try telling that to everyone else who says I just don't care enough about my life to do anything with it...



Deadside Dreams
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Andough
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commentCommented on: Sat Mar 29, 2008 @ 08:20am
You may not want to hear anything from me, considering past issues, but I think you deserve to hear a few things.

First off, you're trying. That's all that matters for now. If your parents think you're a bum even though you try, ******** what they say. You know you're not one since you tried and were dedicated. If the person your living with is being irrational, let him. It'll bite him in his a** later.

Second, life can act like a b***h sometimes. We can seem to try so hard for something only to never attain it. I'm not sure, but there may be places looking for people to hire. Even a small store could be looking for employees.

Last, all I can say about the relationship is that if she were to play a trick, she would have caved in a long time ago. You both seem like people true to your words, and your words towards each other sound true to me. but I'm just a retard so I can't say for sure.

Life may seem to suck. Just endure through it and then after it's done, it's a load off your shoulders. I might have this whole situation wrong, and you might be thinking "s**t, this f*****t is talking tom e again?" I just don't think you deserve to have so much crap go on in such a short time. I hope I comforted you a little, if the situation hasn't cooled down since you posted this.


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