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~*2008-Expired.

2008 went fast. A bit too fast- actually scratch that, it suddenly got fast once school started, i believe.
Summer was long, and it didn't seem to end early. I don't really remember what i did during the summer- i can't really think of any major events that took place. But i remember alot of 7th grade memories, i can only seem to remember bad memories.
Wasn't there this thing that said that your brain is more likely to remember the bad things that took place in your life than the happy moments? Who did i hear that from? When?
I'm happy 2008 ended because it wasn't the best year. I sucked at swimming- unable to reach goals, and then there was drama at home and school.
I hope 2009 is full of happiness. AH!
This calls for a New Years resolution!!!

-Please imagine your own setting and sound effects. Big rocks and splashes of waves are allowed.-

Even thought 2008 was bad- i feel sad that it just had to end. I feel this way with every year, because i think about the future. Then i think about my friends future. 2009 is my last year of middle school, then it's on to the biggest and most independant life of all schoolness ever. Highschool.
College doesn't count- your an adult by then.
That's when i freak. I'm growing up fast, then i'm going to be out of the house. Then my mind is flustered with all sorts of crap. I'm thinking to far. Then i worry that i might lose contact with people. We're changing and we are defiantly not the same as we were before. We think, see, smell, and touch- everything, it seems different.
Your favorite t.v. show as a little kid, you might've loved it.
Watching it now at this age, you're probably thinking:
'What the hell?'

-That goes to all the teletubby fans out there. You sick kids.-

I'm worried. Defiantly worried. I'm worrying about things that would probably be like far away from now. The more i think about this, the less i should be dependant on my family. I can't do normal house work for goodness sake, thats how sad of a poor spoiled child i am.
Then somewhat, you are too?

Then money rings in my head.

Then love.

But mostly success.

2009 is going to be full of surprises.

I'm not going to open my mouth and cry about horrible things that will take place in 2009. I don't want to be a drama queen anymore. I want to be happy.
If i back down i might miss my chance.

Because this year, i want something.