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I shake, as my bitterness runs through my veins
I twitch, as my malicious thoughts run rampant through my brain.
How do I rid myself of self destruction?
How do I rid myself of such a vile obstruction?
I want it to end, without making it all cease
I want to keep my life, just make the pain decrease
Is there a way to reach an innoxious palace?
How will I ever denounce the malice.

It's enraging that I feel as if there's no control
Of the feelings of which I should call my own
Pondering should be within my possession
Not something so odious I force upon it suppression
But my thoughts are of their own will, not mine
I can't help but think this is some kind of sign
That no matter how hard I try I will always fall short
And giving in to what they say is my only retort

I sit here lost, hopeless and truly confused
All my attempts at salvation have been refused
My will to fight has now finally come to a close
There is no longer a threat that my thoughts once posed
It was silly for me to let them tear me apart
I should have known what I know now from the start
I realize now that the way to make them go away
Was to open up my mind, and listen to what they say

I can reach an innoxious palace, I reach it when I fail
I can now denounce the malice, by bringing an end to my tale