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Is it me, or am I just mean?
Do my jokes really go over the line?
Yes.
Yea, i do know that. But some people are able to laugh
it off and notice that it's a joke.
I hate people who can't take a joke. It ticks me off, and ruins the mood.
First off their cool with everything you say, then, BAM! They blow at you when the joke goes to them. Like seriously? I don't feel guilty at all, and probably, i'll never.
I don't want to diss Keenan, because, well, i heard he is a really nice person. Sure he was bullied at young age, but hey, my dad hated me at a young age somewhat, someone probably even hated my guts. I learn, i grow from it.
Then if you were verbally abused from the past, doesn't give you the right to verbally abuse anyone in the present. What goes around comes around, and hell, i hope he gets it hard.
Keenan, yea, nice guy, met him once, don't know him much- yet, he takes things personally? He comes into a chat and curses as a joke. I'm fine with that- Hell, i even do that. Then i called him a peeping tom when sammi asked:
'Is Keenan just reading our chats as we talk- because he's not replying.'
So i reply:
Yea. If there was a window with girls changing, he'd probably look.
Has that been the worse thing i have ever said? Has anyone heard of crude humor? I guess he read it differently and didn't get i was joking Hello? You get me here? Please, tell me you do.
Sammi is not the curseing one; so i didn't want her to go through with it. She even told him to stop- even me when i thought he was joking, all i can say, he exploded. Like a bomb from hell, sent to earth, he exploded into some random cursing.
I didn't read it. Because it was the worse verbal abuse i have ever read in my life.
******** was used so many times- it was so dirty, it disgusted me.
s**t, a**, i was surprised he didn't say slut. Or whore.
Did he say b***h? I don't know- i didn't risk reading that crap, because i was afraid i also might explode.
I replied crudely:
How do you talk to people?
Sam said he took things personal.
Not a good enough excuse.
Not good at all. I was tempted to get my father, but that would
be pretty lame. My dad would probably want to shoot him or something.
I can probably guess there was some verbal abuse going on in his pass-life, but i can't really judge that. I don't even know him well enough.
I really want to be his friend, but if he's gonna take things personally- forget it. I'm careless, and i like to joke. Can't take one, we can't really talk.
I felt like crying because i felt like my biological dad was screaming at my mother- i actually can picture that. My mom said he was screaming at her in the kitchen, got up and left.
but i don't really want to think about it- it makes me a bit depressed.
My perfect splendid day was actaully flushed down the toliet.
I didn't want to curse back, well, because it was pretty stupid to. He kept repeating everything, what was he trying to prove anyways? That I was a gay? For what, watching some sick video or something? People like yaoi, makes them gay too?
I never met anyone so defensive. Please, don't go to Keenaaaaan and start cursing at him and getting angry, just treat him like a best friend, OK? I'll just try my best to forget this, I'll try to choose my words carefully wisely and not offend him. But, i don't think i want to talk to him for a while.
I'll maybe even apologize- but i'm afraid he might explode and call me a b***h for no reason. s**t. That was the worst swearing in the world. He resembles my dad. God.
Treat him well- guess he had a rough past.
Makes me wanna beat up those kids who made fun of him, yet again, not a good excuse.
I don't even have a good enough excuse to why i'm mean- or perverted.
Keenaaaan is nice.
I guess.
He's protective and well, good at school?
Really.
I kind of think-
What?
He wears a mask to be likeable-
Trick-or-treating?
Yep. But i'm the only person who didn't give him a treat.