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~*Let it sink in.

OK, i feel it. I feel the 8th grade pride kicking in. But i still act the same, and look the same. Kenny asked me during math class if i even like grew at all. i told him tall wise. He said that was sad.
It was sad.
I was wearing the same clothes i had last year and also the same shoes. Nothing new, just nothing. People would look at me with a bored expression. The much cooler guess i should say talk to me more because I guess i'm not much of an newb Kenny would say. Everything you say the teachers are cool with it, it's like you get a better and higher respect. But everything is the same so it's boring. Kris, Stuart, Hailey, Bernadine, Trevor and I were sitting at a table together. Nothing new to say but just talking about random things. Saying how easy everything is. No drama to actually deal with. Then all this perverted jokes and my mom popped up.
'Your mom is freakin cool.'
'She's like your sister or something!'
'Are you sure she was drinking at your birthday?'
Yes. She can be cool. Yes she's more sister like than motherly. i think she was, because she was flirting with Tanner.
Then the perverted jokes.
'Uh. . . Hailey stop it.'
Stuart said.
'Stop what?'
'Rubbing your foot up and down my leg!'
'That is so not me!'
Everyone looked at Trevor who was dazed into his own world.
'Trevor. . .'
Stuart teased. Then we all bursted out laughing. It was one of those moments where you just wanted it to last forever. I was happy. Everyone sitting at the table was. One of those moments that i would miss so much when i leave.
Kenny walks into the room and sits on my chair scooting me off.
'Jeez Arriya! You have a big butt!'
What butt?
I mumbled.
'Arriya has to much junk in the trunk.'
'I like junk.'
Beamed Trevor.
Then the laughing once again started. The more people who walked to the table, the louder the laughter. Trevor was just a #1 fan i guess, one who would have the biggest crush on me. It was so silly. I then moved away from the table and went to another classroom. Seeing Tanner i walked over to see him. He was working on his bible homework and i also pulled mines out to copy his answers. I managed to finish some but the rest unsovled.
'i think some of them i got wrong.'
He mumbled.
Don't care. Just need answers.
He then was all playful and tried to grab my paper.
'Give it to me! There's one i haven't saw yet!'
He grabbed my arm, and taking the other arm around me. I forcefully pushed him and managed to hide the paper in my bag. My face was flushed red. Why do this in public?!
Tanner, mines can be wrong too! I'm Buddhist!
But then he protests that i got an A+ in Mr. Marchbanks bible class. We talked when everyone else studied and laughed. Me and Him. Completely just obvious about the both of us. To me this felt fake. I feel like my life is a book. you probably do, you're reading this off a journal, hello?! No matter. I walked up and headed towards the door without saying bye. Just let every single memorable moment sink in. Then i walked out the door. The bible homework in my bag, my face beaming.
So different.
I feel different.
It's OK. Just let it sink in.
Just.
This moment.
Fade and
sink.