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~*L.I.F.E
As a little girl, I was very quiet, I was hyper and shy. I was not like I am now. I was a total sweet tooth [heck i am one now still]. To prove how bad of a sweet tooth i was, i had a cavity in every tooth! I don't give a crap if the dentist says:
'Well. . . uh. . . looks like you have a cavity on ur back tooth.'
I don't give a crap. I'm not scared of the dentist anymore really [unless i get a freak'in gum deseise, lawl. i don't have one] because it was the same thing. I do brush my teeth, but not well. But now i do freak'in brush my teeth like heck.
I got back from the dentist, and well, i'm eating gummy bears right now. I couldn't care less. Hey, got my braces off, enjoy it. Eat all the chewy stuff u can get ur mouth on.
When i was little there wasn't much to talk about. It was me and my mom only living in a small apartment in Tacoma. My mom worked her butt of just so i can eat good meals. My mom said she started her life with a 100 dollar bill. No, seriously. She dind't have any money left. Since my stupid bio-father left her he took all the money from her account, and like canceled her credit card[most of it was his. She could've left if she didn't get prego].
She said i was in the back seat crying, she was trying to get gas. . . no money. She called her friend who lived in Seattle to come and give her money. She gave my mom 100 dollar bill. She started her life with that. [der. She paid her back later on].
Boys looked at me, and said i was cute, but so very stupid. I had the biggest temper, boys didn't mess with me. . . my reactions was to beat them up and later on cry. I was stupid. My education was ok. A cramped school. I sucked at math. Everyones bed time was at 9:00 p.m. while i wanted to say a other time then i said 12:00 a.m. and the teacher looked at me funny.
I didn't know it was morning then.
Copied off of others people papers. They got pissed but i made them happy by saying, your sooooooo smart. Writing was a good one. Reading also. Math always got me. i was amazed the first time i counted on my fingers to add. I found a new way to learn. Amazed how stupid I was?
When my mom got married my step dad was in the army. He said he retired when he married my mom. He didn't want to be away from the family, he said he would find a better job and stay with us. -he lived in japan-.
He helped on my homework, i went to a better school once i moved to Olympia. Madrona park.
My first friend ever in elementary school in a new town, his name Matthew Guest. He was so quiet, smart, and polite. When you got to know him. . . he was a complete weirdo. I asked him how we ever met, he said that Mr.Powell [our 2nd grade teacher] told him to show me around school. He was showing around; to me constantly following. I never talked. I just stalked him around. He said it was ok for me to follow, if i just didn't do anything stupid. When he said that i had to leave. Matthew was Deons friend. Thats how i met him. 4th grade same class, Deon got the courage to write me a love-note. A complete fail.
I was the the girl who had pigtails and pretty clips in her hair. Cried to wear a dress, and be care-free. To a girl who only accepted blue jeans, and just hair down with nothing fancy.
Stupid-Smart.
I'm a nerd now. Thinking about my past. . . I just notice how i failed my life.
My mom said she never let me sleep in my own room when we lived with my bio-dad. She said there were gangs at night, so we slept together. My dad. Cheating on my mom while he said, 'i'm going to Thailand for work.'
Ballet, Tap, Hip-hop then swimming.
My sports. A complete girly, to a girl who hung out with the boys, acted tough. But had that girl living inside her.
I love my life, but there are some issues. Like about my mom wanting to get a divorce. Pressure. Tanner. Alot. But i'm gonna pass all of that, and not let that worry me. I gave up on writing in my diary. i broke it with a knife [please don't ask].
What worries me. . . is that the little stupid girl inside me. . . manages to get out.
 NinteyDegrees_South · Fri Jul 18, 2008 @ 03:58am · 0 Comments |
