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Why should I go on? Go on trying to help? Go on trying save? I know we could beat it if only you didn't WANT it. I though, one day I would have to fight for that which I cared for most deeply, but I can't fight for you if you want things as they are becoming. I can't fight for us both... Why, then should I fight at all? Why do you even want things like that, it doesn't make sense... Tell you the truth, I thought you were the one, I was happy with you. Even when you were taking your frustrations out on me, I was still happy. I felt like you were the best thing to happen to me in the longest time. I once, for a brief moment thought, “man, this is TOO good to be true!" Apparently, it was. That day, I felt my heart break... no, it didn't break... it was shattered, and I don't believe I'll even be able to mend it. I can't stop thinking of all your turmoil from the past, all the CRAP you're going through now, and the great pains you'll suffer in the future. It's breaking me down, and I know I'll soon start to cry. For some reason, I feel like I we were to physically embrace, everything would turn out well... Heh, what a fool I am... In all likelihood, it would have not effect, and the second I turned, you would turn on me. You are pushing me away, without trying. You don't even realize how hard you are pushing, how much you want me away from you... But I can't leave, because if I do, the last piece of you that I loved with all my heart and soul would be lost forever; only a memory. And if that happens, I will have failed you, and broken my promise. Heed these words with an open mind, and do not be afraid to fight. I am with you, whether you can tell or not, and I will be with you until the end.