hey look its my deviantart journal! smile awesome well i just felt like putting it here. feel free to read it. lol. if you want i guess its kinda sorta long... :3nod
God I did it AGAIN. If you read that last journal entry now it would make absolutely no sense at all. After all, I am no longer a grade school student but a HIGH SCHOOLER thank you very much I will now go on about how high school is so far since it is very hard to talk to my friends at school, what with all the ruckus and commotion of being newly innitiated freshman in a tiny school crammed with a million students. First thing. Friends. I made friends with practically all the new kids (thats just how i do XD) and so unlike ever before, i actually KNOW things that are happening. Its amazing how much you know by just making friends with the right people... The only problem is that a lot of the friends I made aren't really the nicest people. Take for example....uh... lets call her subject A. I became friends with her because...well actually because she was just there and i talked to her, and she talked to me and tada. Friends for life (thats what they call the friends you make in high school and that is what scares me) anyway. I thought she was just an awesome person always talking to me and everything but thats just it. SHE is always talking to ME. More like talking AT me actually. Never does she ask me about myself or even seem interested in anything I attempt to tell her. So that kind of annoyed me. Ok enough ranting. This is still about my friends though. They are all overy depressed. Seriously. I think they all hate high school and have given up on it completely even if its only been a month. Although, i dont really blame them. One of them was dumped, another one (my boy crazy friend) realized that they boys at our school were all immature idiots (sad yet true), one cant seem to grasp that the boy she "loves" will never notice her, another is being ignored by like the world, and then there is me. The freakily happy one. I am always sitting with them so it makes me look weird because im the only one smiling and the rest of them are all staring at the ground with defeated looks. It's pitiful actually. What a great start to high school. And before i forget I must mention the winter ball. Yes there is one at our school and i am dreading it and looking foward to it at the same time. Which makes me a pretty confused and twisted girl but oh well. I ended up saying yes to my friend who asked me but i didnt really want to go with him. A small yet significant part of me keeps hoping that someone ANYONE that is actually crush worthy might, maybe, possibly want to think about asking me instead. I know it's hopeless but I still really really wish it would happen because..well... that would really rock I guess...
LAST BUT NOT LEAST the jessness philosophy MUAHAHAHAHA this is the top five. at the moment i have 2 other believers/desciples WARNING: this is NOT my philosophy on life. just on 9th grade
1. dating is overrated 2. bf & gf: just labels 3. love: an empty word 4. boys: most of the time? not worth the trouble. or the tears. 5. cute boys: make good friends too.
like it? it was a spur of the moment thing. makes me sound very pessimistic doesnt it?
chasity_dark_queen · Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 07:27am · 1 Comments |