What's strange about life is that the things that you remember about people aren't always the most exciting things or anything BIG that influenced you a lot. It's like that for me. Except this time. I remember i was in fifth grade and he was in high school summer school and i remember him telling me "high school isn't what it's like in the movies" and all the group leaders agreed with him and started telling stories. I wasn't listening after that though because i was thinking too hard. How can it be that different from the movies? They don't show much anyway. I disagreed with him immediantly not stopping to ask why he thought that way. and as it turned out..... he was right. High school is nothing like what you see in movies. I dont really know what i was expecting actually. well besides bigger lockers. our lockers are so tiny i cant even imagine how they expect us to use them. and they're so low too. i practically have to sit down to use it. so much for decorating it with pictures and mirrors and what not. the guys aren't all that cute either... well not from what i've seen. today was strange. i was walking past these guys sitting down by the railing and i guess they said something but i couldn't hear. actually i didnt even know they said something. or that they were there. i was too busy trying to get past everyone into a clearer space. i walked back though, i practically turned a 360 because i found kim, and i did hear one of them say "...i said it to her but she won't even look at me...." then laughter. i ignored it though because that was my first instict. its sad that it has come to that. but kim heard them. she stopped and she told me later that she looked at them and said "huh?" and they were pointing at me so they started laughing. so once again i am proabably the center of a joke. or it was a dare. which would so explain to everyone why if anyone asked me out even if i really liked them i would have to play 100 questions because of this kind of thing. anyway i've been told mako likes me. great. they say to just ignore him because it usually only lasts a week or so but i think thats mean. i mean i just met him and im supposeed to be making new friends. so, as usual, i act oblivious to everything. i seriously think one day people are going to start calling me a ditz or something because im always pretending to not know whats going on. its just easier that way but it does give people a reason to think im slow. oh well. thats high school i guess?
chasity_dark_queen · Sat Aug 25, 2007 @ 05:43am · 0 Comments |