• Who I was!

    Throughout the endless sands of time
    Throughout the wicked repetitive rhyme
    You always stood tall, always so strong
    Nothing seemed to far, no day too long

    You seemed to have the answers I seek
    You seemed to want the secrets I keep
    How can one man conquer so much?
    How can one brandish such a soft touch?

    Those probing eyes, tear to my soul
    I can’t help but feel complete and whole
    But you terrify and threaten my very being
    Even without knowing, even without seeing

    I liked who I was, so bitter and cold
    I’d rather be dark, alone and grow old
    I know your mind, dissects all my scars
    But their mine to protect, cover and guard

    I’m a complicated puzzle, broken in pieces
    I’m not some game, or rhetorical thesis
    Even just a step, behind my distant black eyes
    You’d never recover, from the hate and despise

    I keep this smile pressed upon my plastic face
    To disguise my disgusting , revolting disgrace
    You’d be wise to bow out, leave alone my head
    Some secrets and feelings, are better left unsaid

    But you only ever think about yourself, dear
    So you’ll keep probing into my deepest fears
    Remember I warned you, remember I tried
    To keep you from the true me, inside

    I liked who I was, so jaded and black
    With happiness, I’m mutating too fast
    It won’t be long, before I just crash and burn
    And then, ha, you quickly will learn

    All those skeletons, I fought to keep down
    Among their bones, you surely will drown
    And sick as I am, I’ll sit back and I’ll grin
    While the black soul, inside me, again, does win.