• I hated her for what she did but worst i hated myself for what she did.
    I feel this pain inside then i feel the anger that i have for myself when i think that i let her do that.
    I thought that i would die without her but so far i am alive.
    I wanted her to come back to me.
    She said she would becase she had made her mind up.
    I hate for that i hate myself for that.
    When i think about her i can feel the pain of not being with her i feel the anger of not talking to her.
    She has made her decision she has told me many times.
    But i can't stand the fact of being away from her i just can't.
    I think about dying i think about the anger and the pain.
    Then i think she was right it may have been for the best.
    I keep thinking about her.
    I keep feeling the pain of what we used to have.
    I no longer have that spark of anger inside of me.
    I still love her and i hope we can someday get together again.
    I cannot stand the fact of being away from her.
    I still love her....i still love her... heart crying