• How did it happen...?
    I'm not sure.
    It hurts.
    My soul's a blur.

    It's painful.
    Like my heart twisting in two.
    I never considered...
    that i didnt know you.

    even though i saw you...
    and never wanted to flirt.
    but my heart still fluttered.
    the fell in the dirt.

    Shattered windows...
    screams echo in my head.
    I had no idea what just happened.
    When you said...

    Help me, help me...
    he told me something new.
    Your the smartest, prettiest, girl i know...
    I. LOVE. YOU.

    My heart went cold...
    my reality was torn.
    i would never fall in love...
    thats what i sworn.

    but i didnt see it...
    right in my face...
    that it was different...
    and my smile left without a trace...

    you wouldnt recognize me...
    even if you saw me for years...
    im so different now...
    thanks to my tearless tears.

    how did this happen...
    i wish i didnt know...
    like chasing after the wind...
    you cant catch it no matter where it blows.

    me...the moron.
    the stupid, happy, loozer.
    chasing after the wind...
    beggers cant be choosers...

    yet i chose anyway.
    knowing the consiquenses...
    i chose, and...look at what i caused....
    look at my messes.

    i thought...
    i can do it..of course i can!
    if she could do it, i can to!
    and so on i ran.

    i was wrong.
    so hoplessly wrong.
    without even asking me...
    everything dies...and my healing time is long.

    i might never make it.
    never. ever. live again.
    so i close my eyes...
    and count to 10.

    10...
    im sorry.....yet i gave it a shot.
    im glad you happy...
    even if it hurts...alot.

    9...
    im sorry....im sorry everyone.
    for worrying you...
    but dont worry. im done.

    8...
    im sorry...for being selfish.
    i know im terrible at this.
    i know...im not 'happyish'

    7...
    im sorry...for choosing.
    i didnt even care about you.
    and now look. I'm loosing.

    6...
    im sorry...for being me.
    i thought i shouldn't change.
    but i never listened to your plee.

    5...
    im sorry...for being deaf.
    i didnt want to hear.
    and now look. you just left.

    4...
    im sorry...for being too happy.
    but im glad i met you.
    and im sorry you never wanted to see me.

    3...
    im sorry...but my time is almost up.
    i can make one last apology.
    because i know im not at the top.

    2...
    im sorry...about what i cant tell you.
    but its time for me to go.
    im sorry about what i couldnt do...

    1...
    its time.
    for me to disappear from your life.
    and so the it rings.......the last chime

    0...
    i want to enter deaths door.
    so i grab the sharp, merciless knife...
    nd watch the blood drip on the floor....
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