• Chapter 39
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    “Hai? Are you ok?” Edan said nudging my arm.
    “Oh, yes I’m fine, just lost my train of thought.” I missed Anna so much. She was there for me when my mother died. She even gave a speech at her funeral. She talked about how my mother would call her ‘Anna Cabana’ and would often joke around asking her why she never hung out at her own house. Anna pulled me through. I cracked the memory before it could swallow me whole. “Edan? Do you remember what your life was like before-” I couldn’t dare finish the sentence. “Before….. this?”
    Edan sighed and gave me a quick smile. “Yes, some things I remember.”
    “Like what?” I was full of curiosity.
    “My family.”
    “And what were they like?” I looked up at him, wonder in my eyes.
    “We were a different family, if that’s the best way to put it. You see my parents were never home, my mother didn’t care enough and my father was in the military. And then there were my siblings. I have one sister, and I had a brother.”
    “Had?” I was confused, How could have had some someone unless….
    “Our family took a turn for the worse. He died two years ago.”
    …….. unless they died.
    “W-what do you mean a turn for the worse?” Tears flooded my face. I was shattered, broken.
    He wrapped his arm around my shoulder, “Are you sure you want to know?”
    “Y-yes,” I mumbled.
    “Well let’s just say it started when my sister, Serenity, got sick in early January. It was when we found out that she didn’t have long to live, she would live until she was about ten.”
    “And how old is she now,” I muttered cutting off part of the distressing story that stabbed a knife through my heart.
    “Five, she was three at the time,” he sighed. Five more years left of life? I was surprised at how calmly Edan could tell the story. If it were me I would have burst into tears just at the dire thought. It seemed as if the few events I had heard of came straight from the Night’s Plutonian Shore, straight from Hell. “But that’s when it got worse,” he continued, “Serenity was able to go back to school by mid-March. I was walking her home when Keenan had an asthma attack, and no one was there to help him. He couldn’t get to his inhaler in time, and he died at age 13. We were informed shortly after by our neighbors, who are my foster parents. They said they had taken care of everything.” I started crying harder, I had alexithymia; I was unable to speak at all, only cry.
    “Why are you crying Hai?” Edan said pulling his fingers through my hair.
    “You’ve lost everything haven’t you? Your family, your life, how do you manage?”
    “Well I have you don’t I? And my sister is still alive, I made sure that incase anything went wrong she could take care of herself.” He pulled me in closer, allowing me to rest my head on his shoulder. “And I must say I am very lucky to have you.”
    “And why is that,” I breathed closing my eyes.
    “You accept me for the terrible monster that I am.”
    “You’re not a monster.”
    “Believe what you want but I am.”
    I took a deep breath; my tears had begun to slow. You’re not a monster Edan, I thought, I don’t love monsters.


    Bonus Junk
    there is a weird story behind this chapter so ive decided to tell it to you
    You see i was going to bed and everynight before I fall asleep I think of ways to make this more interesting for all of you. so I was thinking of Edans foster family and I was wondering if he would have any adopted brothers or sisters (bcuz vamps just have large families and what not) so like half way through my dumb thinking I fell asleep.
    AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT I DREAMT?
    I actually dreamt of what Edans life would be like before what I call "The Incident" (dont confuse it with "The Accident" which you learn about later on in the story. And in it he had a younger brother named Keenan. I actually saw Keenan die (and it was a dream so I dont quite remember how he died so I just decided myslef... that and im pretty sure it was gay)
    AND THIS IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF THE STORY!!!!!
    this is the best dream Ive had starring these characters (lets just say that when I had the others.... I woke up on the floor crying becuase.... well someone I love dearly died ok?)