• I lived in a town called Hoffman Estates; I was ten years old when I first felt like I was useless.
    In fifth grade I had a best friend. We were inseparable, but in late April of fifth grade we got into a fight. I hurt her and she hurt me.
    I called over the summer to say sorry five times. Every time I said it she became colder and colder to me. It got worse in sixth grade, she got to my other friends, and they started to avoid me and started to make fun of me.
    She continued to hurt me through the years. In Junior High it continued to worsen, she got to the other students and told them to hate me. I was alone, I had friends, but I lost them later on or we lost touch. I had a friend, we met in sixth grade, and my ex-friend got to her.
    In seventh grade, I had my first birthday party, I gave her an invitation, and she stared at it, laughed, tore it up, then threw the pieces into the air, and walked off. That killed me majorly.
    It got tougher in August of this year, I went to high school, many of my friends went to another school, or were placed in higher or lower classes then me.
    The first day of school, the fifth grade friend and I had biology together, she said "oh....you're in this class" It hurt me really badly, I went to my counselor at the end of the day and I asked to change to another science period and I started to cry.
    I was changed to fifth hour; I thought it would be easier. I was totally wrong. I was miserable. I couldn't handle it, I gave up all hope. I wanted to die. I didn't go to school for about a month, I was at home, I had a tutor. I stayed home and had my teachers fax me my homework.
    I returned homecoming week. I resumed my school activities, play after school, going class to class, and went to homecoming. I was then diagnosed with A.D.H.D. (attention, deficit, hyperactivity, disorder) I continued to go to school and to the counselors, and psychiatrist. I couldn't take it any longer!!!
    November third I took my own life, I was fourteen years old. That’s when I met Wayland.