• i look my boyfriend as he sleeps on my bed. his body covers the entire thing and i just walk back and forth. i look at the wall and then back him. i thought to myself as i continue to pace back and forth. (how can i do that?) i ask myself. (how can i not hurt the ones i truley love? who should i live for? her or him) i look at my boyfriend and tears form in my eyes. all i can think about now is her. her perfect eyes and her perfect smile. the way her hair shines around her. then i try to remember everything we shared. (who do i love more? would i rather hurt him or lie to myself?) i ask myself as i gently opened my desk draw. i genlty grab my black pen with the bloody red ink. i wrote down my last thoughts. i ran out my door and grab the phone i quickly dailed her cell phone number. noone picks up except her voice mail. i say the exact same thing i wrote down. then i ran to the beach felling ill and exhausted. i look out into the ocean wishing i could be one with it. i begin walking into the water. first it covers my knees then my hips. next my chest then my head until i am completely cover and i feel as i am being melted away. (they should be getting my message soon) i dont breathe no more


    - back at my house-

    my boyfriend wakes up to a letter in his face. his cell phone goes off. he answers it in a calm voice to a screaming voice. it was her. "quick maybe we can save her!" she screams but my boyfriend says no. he read the note over and over and explain what it meant.

    the note said

    " how can i live with myself if i cant have you both? no one would accept me. i love you too much to hurt you so my life is out of the picture. atleast my dream came true, ' i am one with the ocean' "