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Since I've been feeling a little lonely and since I've been thinking about them so much, I dedicate this journal entry to all of my good friends out there who I love and cherish. This way I can remember all t he good times and you can get to know me a little better, whoever you may be wink .

Well I guess I'll start off my telling you about my childhood friend Dina. I told you about her in another entry but I don't mind doing it again. Now if YOU do, then just skip over this part. Well first of all she is around 3-4 years younger then I am. She lives in Russia which is where I lived for the first nine years of my life until I came here. I met her because my mom had a job as a babysitter at the time so I got to know her like a sister. So when the time came, I had to leave for America. I only visited Russia last summer and that is the first time that we saw each other in seven years. Both of us have grown and matured a lot. What made me really sad was that I still remembered her and still felt like we are great friends, but she did not. First of all she did not remember me: or she did but hardly. The other thing was that I did not have that good of an impression on her anyways. I was very happy and cheerful all the time, but I guess that it is a different culture and people who act like I did in Russia are considered slightly insane... Well she went with it and more or less even got used to it, but she never did really get to like me all that much. I do miss her but I don't know if she misses me... Even though it is like this, I still consider her to be a good friend of mine who had a great impact on my life.

My second person would be Sung Roa Yoon aka Daniel san! I and Daniel go back to elementary school. I went to school in the middle of fourth grade and he came soon after. Daniel is Korean and he could hardly speak English at the time and I could hardly speak it as well. We communicated through hand motions at first, but as time went along we made great progress. In fifth grade both of us could already speak English quite well. We had lots of fun together and he taught me lots of things. The thing about Daniel is the fact that he is extremely smart. I can't wait to see what he accomplishes in life because it will be something very extraordinary. We split up after elementary school because we went into separate middle schools. We talked on the phone all the time and went over to each other's houses from time to time. Daniel didn't get to go to high school here because he moved away to Arizona before that. We still talk on the phone a lot but this year we have not talked as much as I would have liked to at all. When one of us has some sort of trouble we always call each other and talk about it. I am helpful to him with people advice and I know that I can ALWAYS rely on him for any sort of academic advice. When it comes to academics Daniel is simply amazing. He got a girlfriend this year and I was very proud of him. I haven't talked to him in a while but I hope that he is happy. I'll call him probably this weekend since I have the time.

The next person that I will talk about is Saiprasad Gunasegaran. Ok! Fine! So I DON'T know how to exactly spell his name but I certainly know how to pronounce it and what it sounds like. I usually call him Sai for short but he likes people to call him Gunny after our idol: our 8th grade science teacher, Mr. Erickson. Mr. Erickson is our idol because he was so friendly and he was our definition of a just person. Well anyways! Sai and I met in middle school in around 6th grade. I was still in ESOL for some reason but that was where we met. Sai could not speak that much English at the time, but we managed. We made fun of each other sometimes but never in a hurtful way, only in a fun way. I remember when I first met him! Man! He was such a quite, shy little kid! I taught him to talk to people and to actually have fun with life. He would have trouble sometimes and I would always do my best to cheer him up. Throughout middle school we were good friends. Sai is very smart too. We split ways when high school came because we went to different ones. That is fine by me now because we talk all the time whether on facebook or by phone and we hang out a lot. Well maybe not as much as I want to in any of that but enough to remember one another and tell of each other's troubles. He has come such a long way! He has lots of friends now and most certainly a LOT more self confidence. He is certainly not afraid to speak his mind like he used to be. I am so proud of him xd

The next person who I want to talk about is Alan Brown. Daniel and Sai are both in my grade, but Alan is a grade below me. We met each other through marching band because we play the same instrument. He has some sort of disorder which makes him apparently very anti social, but being the person that I am we quickly became friends. I and Alan are like brothers now-a-days. I would probably have the same connection with Daniel and Sai if they went to my high school now. Alan and I have such a good connection that I could so much as LOOK at him and he will know what I mean. If I am mad or something, he does not have to ask me what is wrong either because I told him (lol) or most likely because he knows me that well. When we are surrounded by people and I have something on my mind that I want him to hear but nobody else, we have eye communication. I am dead serious! I will look at him and he will know what I mean and the same goes for him! I know that that may seem unbelievable, but it’s true! The reason I know that it is true because we talk about it afterwards and it would be like, yeah! I knew that you meant that when you looked at me! I don’t know if I will be in marching band next year but it looks highly unlikely for me. In fact, chances are that I won’t even go to school and possible won’t even live here anymore. I might move away to my dad’s place. My mom and my dad live in separate states because of a job issue: they are not divorced. I hope that I stay and remain in marching band because I like it here and have many bonds that I do not want to break. I will make many people very sad and mad if I do…

The next person that I will talk about is Catherine Turner. It was a funny story of how we met but I am sure that it was bound to happen in one way or another since we are two very famous souls. Well anyways! We met though science fair. So both of us were in middle school at the time and we were in separate ones. So both of our schools had science fairs and both of us made it past the school level: we made it to regional. Both of us exceeded that year even there and we made it to state. Now we have not seen or talked to each other until then. When the day came for state, we went to a place where a bus was waiting for us. I don’t remember how EXACTLY we first met and talked but we must have hit it off right away because I remember us talking to each other all of the days that we were there after that. So we exchanged phone numbers after the science fair was over and that’s how it started (both of us won third place btw which is very good at state level). So talked on the phone every day (I mean it) for about a year and really got to know each other. When I went to high school she was still in middle school because she is one grade level below me like Alan is. I expected her to come to my high school, but she went to another. I was upset by this, but after a year of being at that high school, she realized that that was not the place for her so she transferred to my school. Of course I was very happy. Unfortunately that did not last very long because she told me that she got a boyfriend… There is a whole long story behind that. So I have know her for around four years now. For three of those years and before I knew her, she was dating somebody. They broke up around a year ago and it was a huge mess. Cat was very upset and everybody helped her out. Now how do my feelings for her go? Well right now we are simply friends and I might possibly say that our relationship is slowly but surely deteriorating. If I am ever to talk of Catherine, you should know this: she was the only person that I ever TRULLY loved. To let go of her was like to go through hell, but I had to make it end. First of all I was tired and there were some other reasons which I won’t mention at the moment. Well the thing is that she sort of knew that I liked her long ago, but I told her that I loved her. I guess I just wanted to say it. Well nevertheless, I left for Russia in the summer and when I came back, Catherine was in my school and she had a boyfriend. He does not go here so I at least don’t see her with him all the time. Cat is still very nice to talk to if you have any sort of trouble because she will understand, but I sort of have this feeling as to not wanting to do it… When I look at her now, I truly don’t love her anymore, but deep down, my heart still cries at how sad it all is. You have to experience something like that to understand.

The last person that I will talk about is Mary Weinrich. Well this has certainly turned out to be a hell of an entry huh! Well I guess since I had the time I don’t see why not. Well I only met Mary this year. She is in marching band as well as me but she plays a different instrument. I talked about Mary before as well but I’ll do it again anyways. Yes I am still in my mad mood and Mary is the only person who can move my heart enough to make me care about anything at the moment. She is two grades below me. Mary is very fun to be around and we talk about all kinds of stuff together. I don’t keep any secrets from her and I doubt that she keeps any from me. Both of us like reading Naruto but she only likes reading it because she loves Akatsuki. I like it because I find it to be an awesome anime. Both of us also love Katekyo Hitman Reborn! because it is a kick a** anime. It is quite unusual for me not to have many words about good friends, but there is simply not much to say. We have not known each other forever like I have known the others, but I trust her with anything and she is very good at listening and giving advice. She is smart but what amazes me is not her study smarts but her amazing quick thinking! If there if ever a hot debate about ANYTHING, Mary is certain to win it! I hope to not move away because I really want to get to know her better. Another thing is that I have suddenly started really liking her… As in more then just a friend. It is very annoying but I guess it gives me something to think about. I sort of hope that it will just go away and not cause one of those annoying awkward relationships.

Well if you got his far I must say WOOOOW!! Nice job! You must be very interested in my life or you might have nothing better to do. Whatever the reason is, I applaud you. Well now you probably know a lot about me. There is a lot more for me to tell you about myself but I will have to save that for another day. This entry is way too long and I’m tired. I think I’ll go call somebody if I’m in the mood for it. See ya.