So I'm still mad/sad. Everybody is worried like crazy but I don't even care. I suppose that's because I simply reached that point. Nevertheless, there is a person who I told all my trouble to and there is 2 reasons why i did that. 1 because since we gotten to be good friends and for some reason she is the only person that i care if they are upset or not. 2 because i trust her and she wanted to know unlike everybody else who just flop around me trying to look concerned. Well that is that. My second main point right now is that I all of a sudden... started to like her more then just a friend. It is a feeling that makes me want to cry and laugh at the same time. It is completely weird. I told her this btw: the fact that i like her i mean. This is funny to me and yet very concerning because we are very good freinds and i tell her everything... and also because she is a lesbian. (lol) Yeah yeah i get it and it is so weird! Maybe it is because I'm feeling lonely or maybe because I all of a sudden find her attractive? Omg this is even weird to talk about. I told her all of this too! The only result now that i've told her this and all my troubles is that she gives me more hugs then ever! argh i tell you it's crazy. In other news, I like the new side of me. This is probably because I'm always so nice and don't let my anger out enough. I feel... relaxed. Its sort of nice. In other news, it has rained for the past 4 days which is when I got all mad/sad. Sort of ironic if you ask me. Well I suppose that's all for now. Till next time twisted
Ryohei Sasagawa Sun Community Member 
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