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Looking back at my past entries, I've come to realize that I haven;t really been a very happy person. My friends and people that have talked to me often will always tell me that I'm pretty optimistic about everything though. I guess, like me, they didn't see the whole picture. If I look back at what my life's been like bit by bit, I would have said there were more good times than bad. Though that's true, I couldn't say that I was really happy about everything as a whole. In reality, probably the bad times outnumbered the good. Or maybe they were jsut equal. I never really stopped to check.

Most of my previous entries consisted of very negative and sad thoughts. It makes me feel quite sorry for myself, rereading all of them again and taking it all in. Probably if I was another person, looking and reading all of the things I wrote all at once, I wouldn't think that this Ariza was a very happy person at all.

All that however, has changed. smile

Nowadays, I can't seem to stop smiling. I do know why. It's amazing how one person can change how you feel about things, even about life and the future. I used to think that the future was pretty bleak, but now all that has changed for the better. I now truely believe that some things happen for a reason. Whether it be a bad or good thing, things happen for a reason. I see that now because I feel like everything's just been a prelude to this moment.

It's also amazing how one person can suddenly beocome the most impostant thing to you. I think it's truely wonderful. It's nice to know that you cared anough for something in your life. That there was something in your life worth everything, something worth fighting for. I think that I've found that.

Since then, I've just been filled with happiness. I go to bed and wake up with a smile on my face. I owe it all to this one person. I wish that things could and will be forever this way. Happiness isn't the stuff of dreams. You just need someone who'll be strong enough to show this to you. smile

I am happy. So happy I could cry. In fact, it leaves me speechless sometimes and I just want to keep looking to the sky and thinking endlessly of him. I think also that I'll remain like this for a long time. It's all kinda sappy but that's how I feel most times now.

Looking up at the great big blue sky with nothing but thoughts and a smile, just for him.

Travis, it's to you I owe you my happiness. smile
Thank you eternally.