I am kind of upset know that I won't be able to see Andrew for a while. He helped me out emotionally yesterday. That's why I love him so much. I miss Andrew so much. It is just not fair. He is one of the only good things I have left and I can't stop thinking about him. Everytime we have to leave each other I cry in my room and I get stressed that I am not with him. I have those thoughts in my head and I can't stop thinking about him. He is the one the helps me live on. He is the one that helps me move on and help me whenever I feel sad. He is like my soulmate. He is the one that helps me feel better about myself and I kind of do the same for him. I don't know what is happening me to. I don't know what I have become. My light cheerful side is fading while my dark depressed side is getting more powerful. It is like I am changing into something a lot worse than before. I am glad that my mom doesn't b***h at me anymore but I think I am turning into some kind of demon. I don't know what is happening to me. It is like my true self is revealing itself. It is like my Dark Angel side is being revealed since all of my life I have been fighting both my Dark and Light side to see what I am truely. I don't know what I am going to do when my transformation is complete but I am sensing that it is not going to be good especially for me...
DarkLotusAngel · Tue Feb 27, 2007 @ 11:51pm · 0 Comments |