God I have been feeling weird since what happened last month... I mean, one day he tells me that he still really wants to do the whole "one more chance" thing with the finding one more girlfriend, the next thing I know, he does it and breaks up with me even though he said that he would wait which really hurt me.
I am just a 15 year old but, I still have a soul. What am I suppose to do..... I keep on telling him that I love him but, either a) he tells me that he doesn't believe me or b) he tells me that my love for him should die but, what am I suppose to do..
He said that he would be with me forever but it turns out that it was just a lie... that's the last time that go out with someonet that is already a senior before me and this guy has done it like for the 7th time now..
He either he calls me a liar, thinking that I lie about everything but, it's not true...
I don't care if he sees this, he has to know once and for all EXACTLY how I feel. I don't know why I always feel this way but, it's just the way I am. I mean, right now, I am typing with a sprained wrist and I am in a wrap on both my wrist and my knee. Everything keeps happening to me that's bad and he just doesn't care. I just don't know what's going to happen to me.
If I die, I just don't care, I mean... my family lost hope in me, I bearly have any friends, he was the only thing that I really have left. If I lose him, I will have nothing left and I might as well give up on life...
DarkLotusAngel · Mon Feb 05, 2007 @ 04:40am · 0 Comments |