This is just a repost of the blog I made on my myspace.
I know I've posted this before, but I decided to post it again, but be a bit less specific on who I'm talkin about...
Ok, so the night before New Years eve, I was talkin to a friend of mine about how I was thinkin about asking this girl out, and she told me to go for it, not to worry, and that it'd go great if I just put myself out there....
I went to bed thinking about that, and decided the next morning, pretty much right as I woke up, that I would ask her out when I get the chance. Shortly after that, though, I found out that the girl I wanted to ask out had a boyfriend already, and that it seemed I missed my chance. I didn't even get the chance to tell her how I felt, and I still haven't.... don't know if I'm going to, either.
So, anyway, yeah, it hurts still. Right after I found out, I was planning on goin to Borders, thinking about what would happen were I hit by a bus on the way (something I'm really ashamed of thinking...I understand that suicide isn't the answer for this kind of s**t, but this is just what I was thinking, and that cannot be changed). Luckily for me, though, a friend of mine called, and asked if I wanted to hang out with him. I really didn't feel like it, but I figured that I hadn't seen him for a while, so why not?
So yeah, right now, I'm a bit bitter, despite how I'm typing this out. Still a bit pissed off that I missed my chance, like I always seem to, if I ever have one, that is. Still a bit depressed that I am, once again, alone, and always reminded of it every ******** time I see a couple walking around. Not like it matters to anyone, though....
So.... yeah,got a bit sidetracked, but anyway, if the girl I wanted to ask out realises its her I'm talking about, I'll openly admit it, and hope for the best, though I doubt it'll turn out well in any case.
Oh, and (to the not single peopleI hang out with) if you make plans on hanging out with me (fat chance), and bring your bf or gf along, I will turn around and go back home, I don't give a damn how far from home I am, I'll do it. That's just to warn everyone, just in case....
and right now, the last thing I need is ******** advice. So don't give me any advice, or I'll completely ignore it. Especially those people who think "oh, I'm not single cause I did this, so I should tell Scott to do the exact same thing" because people are ******** different, and take things differently. So seriously, don't give me advice, unless you want me to get pissed off at you and start screaming at you.
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Im sorry, I promise no advice.....
*Super hugs*
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