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Hm, where to start. I guess I'll start with the most recent happenings, since it's pretty much all on my mind at the moment.

So... I dunno when, but I got this disturbing message (That I won't be reciting here) from my boyfriend, Chris. It really worries me, and I'll be really sad if he does what he said he would do in his message. Like, really, really sad. I'd probably be crying for days. Chris has this idea that no one cares about him. If only he'd see how much I did, he would understand that the amount of care I give for him should make up for the lack of care a lot of other people give him. I wish he would understand how much I actually love him, and stop being silly and quit refusing to believe that everyone put him down and just downright didn't care. I almost wish he would see this journal entry, but I doubt that he would change even if he did.

Anyway, so as soon as I got his message, I called him. I got his dad, who Chris is living with and helping, since his dad is disabled. Our conversation went something a little like this:

Casey (Me): *Calls Chris*
Chris's Dad: Hey.
Casey: Is Chris there?
Chris's Dad: Bye. *Hangs up*

I was quiet for a moment, thinking about what just happened, with the phone still at my ear beeping the "DROPPED CALL" beep like crazy. Usually, well, as far as I knew, Chris's dad was fine with me calling Chris, and I had *thought* that he even liked me. I don't know why he hung up on me, or if it had anything to do with Chris's message, but now I'm really worried. I don't know if I should call again, who would answer, assuming they DID pick up, and what they would say. Today is day two of not being able to see Chris.

So here's my teenage drama. I'm worried sick that something might have happened to him, especially considering the tone of the message he left me. I know I'm kind of leaving you guys in the dark, but the message was personal, and I doubt he would want it broadcasted over all of Gaia (or at to least those who cared enough to read this). Hopefully I'll be able to see him today and confirm that he's alright. Hopefully.

I guess I'll keep posting an update day-by-day, to let you guys know if he's here yet. Or to just write my thoughts if I need to. I've tried a journal once, and only one or two people read it, so whatever.

Huzzah for a depressing first journal entry. domokun