“I know, Mr. Kousky. I know. I am the greatest ever” I declared and played with two vampire action figures. Unfortunately the bell rang seconds later. And I was now half way across campus from my first hour class. I was normally late anyway. I walked into my Social Studies class moments after the bell rang. The teacher looked at me distastefully. “Late again Miss Berkley?” she snarled “So it would seem” I smiled and took my seat next to Joey. He looked back at me kind of awkwardly. I stared back. So, I stared to right him a note. As I passed it to him he quickly wrote back and gave it to me. In my chicken scratch hand writing it read: ‘Hey, what’s up? Are you mad at me or something?’ In his perfect ‘I’m an honors student’ penmanship it read: ‘Kind of. You’re acting weirder than usual lately. It’s like you’re jealous of Gigi or something. Or maybe you’re mad at me’ my heart sank. Joey mad at me? That totally crushed me. Now I felt bad about leaving him in the library that morning. I scribbled back ‘Sorry if IU made you feel that way. I’m just not comfortable with the fact that you’re dating and I’m not even being checked out. I understand if you never want to talk to me again.’ But he never really wrote back. He just looked at me funny again. He didn’t talk me to me all that day. And I never understood why. But I wasn’t going to ruin the silence. Be he did call me after school. “Hey, Claudia. I’m sorry about ignoring you today.” He said glumly. “It’s ok. I needed to know what real rejection was. I mean no even the nerds allowed me to sit near their table,” I laughed but he didn’t find it as funny as I did. “Gigi broke up with me today.” He said awkwardly. “I didn’t know what to do, and didn’t want to turn to you. I don’t fell comfortable talking to you about dating. I guess I just freaked out over whether you would laugh at me or baby me or whatever else. I’m really sorry,” he said “Quit apologizing. You sound like my mother.” I said blatantly. He sighed over the phone. He did this often. And there was a certain way that he sighed that was just defining. It really said what he was. A worrywart boy who couldn’t stand to have and assignment done after the day it was assigned. I have no idea how we were friends. “Well, you ever every right to be mad at me Claudia. I don’t blame you for hating me. I was rude to you.” He apologized. Again! “It’s ok. Have you seen how I treat people I don’t like.” Ha! Another truth! So you see I don’t lie that much. Anyway I did explode into a cussing frenzy when someone ticked me off. “Oh” he said quietly. “What’s with you? You’ve been all weird.” “It’s just that we’ve been like falling apart. At first I though it was because we were growing up and I was dating and you were still playing with vampire dolls. But I think I know why now” “Why? I asked my attention now hung at his every word. “Because we’re different. Very different. Claudia, you like to be bit by spiders in your spare time” I looked at my bitten arms and shrugged “And I like to study and skate. We come from different universes.” He explained “Does this mean you want to stop hanging out? I asked close to tears. He was my only real friend. What was I going to do without him? “Well, part of me wants to separate and stop talking, but my other half is telling me that you’re more my friend than anyone else. I don’t know, Claudia. I have to think about it.” As he said the final words it was like the final nail in the coffin. A tear ran down my cold pale face for he first time in years.
~sweet~goth~ · Sun Sep 03, 2006 @ 12:40am · 1 Comments |