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*sighs* I feel so drained....so dead. I feel so damn useless no matter what I do anymore. Nissa and David are always so protective of me....i'm just not used to it. I never was to begin with. Everyday....I feel like i'm a weakness. Just an obstacle in the way. I mean....their always comforting me, just like this week. Rachel and Jaymee dropped me down here in Tennessee....and with that they promised that they'd never forget me...and would always ALWAYS keep in touch. How bad is it that after being here a little over a month....they've called all but twice. Hell, i had to call in order to find out my grandpa Leroy died. I'm pathetic!!! I'm always upset about something, i'm always in need of comfort in some way or another...and i'm so......damn....SICK OF IT! I feel like a fragile kitten! Hell, today I twisted the s**t out of my ankle, and i'm always needing help up and around everywhere....i'm....pathetic. That's what it is, i'm just in the way. Why.....why do i always feel like i'm just a weakness...just something in the way of everyone's perfect NON-bullshit life? You know what, Rachel....Jaymee.....David...and Nissa.....if anyone of you read this....*points to her heart* Just know, day after day....I hurt. Right here. always. It feels like someone just snatched it out of my chest and crushed it to pieces....and then put it together just to do it again. Why...*cries* why does everyone worry!!!!? Why does ANYONE care about the fact i'm a pitiful, fragile, and lost little girl. I hate this! It feels like pity...and I CAN.....NOT take it any longer. This is hurting so bad...and so is my ankle...so i'm going to just cry into my pillow. Just know that I love you all....thanks for caring....just don't worry so much. I feel like you're always too busy worrying. Just live your lives and let me be. That's all I ask. Arigatou.

-Kairen