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I know what you're thinking. I believe you know I feel the same.
Truth is, you should know some things before we progress.

Let me tell you a little bit about myself.


Where do I begin...
I think I'll start by saying I'm a very careful person.
No, very careful isn't near descriptive enough.

I'm an extremely careful person.
Every where I go, everything I do is highly planned.
In most cases at least.

Obviously I can't plan everything, I can't predict everything. But before I walk in to anything, I think it through as far as my perception will allow, which is usually pretty damn far.

This said, I'm not quick to walk into relationships. I'll probably never ask someone out on a date unless I get to know them well before hand.
Due to human psychology, by the time I've finished putting the effort into evaluating someone, I have become deeply committed and loyal to that person. Sounds nice, but there's a severe flaw in this system.
Unfortunately, by the time I find that the person's worth the time and risk, I get friendzoned.

So the state I find myself in leaves me unable to get said person off my mind, and that person is uninterested in having a deep relationship with me.

A bit of a pain, right?


Anyways, because of how much time I invest in people who start to peak my interest, I've had an incredibly short list of females I've been interested in giving my life to. (As I said, I plan everything and by the end I'm completely committed).

4 people.
That's it so far. I can name them all.
But I won't.

These 4 people are those who I will never stop thinking about.
Well no, that's not entirely true.
2 of those 4 people I haven't stopped thinking about every day of my life since they caught my eye.

I haven't seen either of their faces in over a year now.

Fortunately, there's a slight remedy for this.
If I remove every trace of these people from my life, I won't worry about them as much.
It's impossible for me to completely erase my past though. There's still a few dear friends in my life who have had contact with these 2, and they provide feint passing reminders every so often.


There's one way around this mess-- you have to approach me and say that you're interested. I'm willing to step out of my comfort devices at the request of people, but the reality is that I will probably never approach a female with such an idea, unless it's painfully obvious there's sparks between us. That was the case with 1 of the 2, my first and only girlfriend.


All of that said, I hope you know where you stand now.

I'm more than willing to spend time with you at your request. If we kick off well, which I think we will, you will find yourself added as my 5th commitment, and above the other 4.

It's all up to you.
I look forward to a favorable answer.